Jessica L

Life, oh life.

2011-11-30T04:15:00.000-08:00

Ever think that life's too tough too scary too fake too everything that is negative? I think that is why people end their own lives.

I think I need to get out of my room. When I start blogging, it is a mini sign that I've been thinking way too much and I just need to type it all out instead of letting it roam around in my head that is too packed already. Lol.

Just this morning I was trying to absorb everything in and be grateful for the every little thing now. Cause that's what keeping me alive.

Life.....

I think life is never simple, it is always complicated. Something Felicia and I talk about very often. Then I will end up saying, stupid life.

Ha.ha.

x
Jessica L.

Strength

2011-05-19T22:56:00.000-07:00

When I see them two, they're really like soul mates. The chemistry between them is so strong. There's nothing to hide between them, love is indeed gentle, and patient.

As I browse through the older post in this blog, I start to realize the benefits of having a blog. Its not only a place for me to post up my daily rants but also to see how much you've grown, and a source of strength, at least for me it is. Makes me feel like I've gone through so much in the past and there's nothing that's gonna be tougher.

I'm feeling the strength for this moment. :)

Vicious cycle

2011-05-08T13:08:00.001-07:00

Until unless you find someone who's really worth it, then you'll strip off all your ego for her. Go look for her. You're still the man, she's the woman. Ask yourself, have you found her yet?

Girls, ask yourselves, have he found you ah? :p

623. Keeps me going

2011-04-29T10:23:00.000-07:00

29th April 2011

Everybody's talking about the wedding, but here, I'm attending Ruth's royal 20th birthday tea party. Congratulations to Prince William and Kate nonetheless. :)

Anyway, a very blessed 20th birthday to Ruth, and yes, we have been laofung for two years now but don't you think each year is getting better?! :D

30th-1st of May 2011

Uhuh, its May already! Very special weekend for me because its the first time we're sleeping over at church. :D Our cell group decided to do something more relaxing and actually was waiting for more pictures to be posted up but never mind, here's some I've taken myself. :)

Really enjoyed the camp, except the part that we had to sleep in a sleeping bag :p Other than that, it was a really fruitful session and I really wanna thank Kee Aun for organizing this for us. Basically this sleepover is a little less structured compared to normal church camps thus it was really relaxing. Really like a a group of friends going on a short trip just that we're overnighting at church instead.

The next morning, we all woke up really early for a morning jog at this urm I don't know what's the name park but if you take the MRR2 often enough you should know there's a park where people fly kites and stuff. ;) Supposed to continue with some other activities in the afternoon but we were all dead tired that we ended the session with a short sharing session, done in a very different yet personal manner.

Gathering in Nexgen hall for movie session - Fireproof
Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will not come, it just mean that you will be prepared when the fire comes.

Morning jog

Writing what we learn about each other, what I mean by a very 'personal' ending.
Oh well, we cannot leave without a group shot can we? ;) And this is the girl's room, three girls in such a huge room ;D

Talking to Jesslynn about her roommate seriously make me feel blessed that I don't have to go through what she's going through. At least for another few months. That will also be one of my so called 'motivation' and 'consolation' if I don't get to.. uh nvm.

Anyway, Jesslynn, 2 more months and you'll be back. After you shift into a new house you'll definitely feel better. :) All the ppl back here are praying for you don't forget. :) We love you! <3

Before I go, lemme show of my RM15 manicured nails. ;)
x Jess

Ciao, semester 2

2011-04-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

Part of me wants to do this in celebration of the end of finals and semester 2:

But I'm am still so freaking scared for 106. If I ever not passed that subject, that's the end of my dreams. Killing the many other little little dreams that tag along with it.

Me going kerazyyyyy if I... did not pass:

Me if I pass all my subjects with flying colors:

Okay nvm, I'm a 100 times prettier.

Sem 3, here I come. Be good! <3

x Jess

Surrender

2011-04-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

Have been anticipating for this weekend so much because:

1. Metro Tab. having evangelist Shyju Mathew over for three days of power encounter meeting ,
2. Which also means finals is ending soon, one more paper to go!

These three days of meeting have been powerful. Though it was far beyond my expectation, i went expecting to release my burden, lay some of things I haven't been able to let go and forgive completely at the altar, but I found something more valuable, The Answer.

Today's sermon is one the toughest sermons I ever hear in my life as a Christian. I'm sure it was to many of us because it was so straight forward, God is telling you directly what He wants you to do. You know you should do it, yet its so hard, but you know you should. Have you been in this kind of situation?

I always ask God the reason for all the pain in my life. I always ask God what have I done so so so wrong to be deserving of it and today, I found the answer why. Evangelist Shyju was sharing about surrendering everything you have to the Lord. He asked us if we ever ask a young child to give his/her only sweet to us, only to see them holding on to the sweet even tighter, but if they have 2, and they like you, they most probably give you one, and hold on tight to the other one in their hands.

Then it hit me. I always thought I surrendered everything to the Lord. I always pray that God take control over my future yet today I see that I'm still holding on to some 'sweets' and only give God some of it. Then he continue saying that sometimes God have to literally snatch it back from you, and there's where the pain starts to come.

After hearing this, I know there are still things I have to surrender to God, but even so, it was tough, so so tough. From today on, this is going to be my prayer and its something I have to learn, to take a bigger step of faith, and step out of my comfort zone. I will pray the same prayer as Evangelist Shyju prayed. Lord, let me learn to be smart, to surrender to You before You have to snatch it from me. Amen!

Have you gotten you answers yet? What's are you supposed to surrender yet you're still hanging on tight to it?

Okay, on the least serious side, it was a superb Easter day! Lunched with the whole gang of people at Lot 10 and thanks, Wee Liam for being my driver :D Indeed fulfill your promise that I will be well taken care of by the group. Haha! Ohmygod I sound like some princess wth! :p Anyway, lunch was awesome! Hokkien Mee, Pork Burger, Shreaded Ice, "Cow balls" (haha) and lots of amazing food!

The best of the day :

PORK BURGERRR :D

Shreaded ice ;

Alright, that's all for today.

Jessica L. and yes, Happy Easter!

SIGH. of relief.

2011-04-21T10:19:00.000-07:00

Let out THE biggest sigh of relief in the 20 years of my life.

This afternoon, Me, Felicia and Wai Yi were having our usual Sheffield talk and since we were having a paper in two hours time or so, I started calculating CGPAs and the mark I should get to achieve a 2.7 CGPA to get my full offer.

I got very very lazy this semester even from the beginning of the semester because (excuse my stoopidity/proudness/laziness) what is 2.7 la?! 3.0 then I will freaking study till 3am everyday la! Wai Yi became the calculator and started counting my CGPA starting from the first semester and I also gave him my predicted scores for this semester and the coming semester. Turns out 2.7 isn't that easy to get la. I cannot afford to get any C next semester just to get a little above 2.7 I stressed out like mad.

Then now, after hours of writing 3 long essays in (last minute) preparations for my Mass Comm paper this Saturday, I started calculating CGPAs, again. This time, I remembered that we only have 11 subjects for first year and all the while Wai Yi divided my scores in average of 12 subjects. Ohwhatthecrappppp!

THE BIGGEST BADDEST

SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH
OF RELIEF

Sorry for being so dramatic. ;P You just gotta be in my shoes to know what and how I'm feeling ;)

And I don't know why I put baddest next to biggest. Its just a really relieving sigh. If there's such a word. Ah whatever. Back to revision. ;) Yes me is super pumped up!

Ciao.

Oh yeah, hi Justin Bieber, welcome to Malaysia! And please leave soon. Bai.

x
Jessica L.

Road bullies

2011-04-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

One of the happiest and also the scariest day of the month.

Just came back from Humble Chef-ing with Jo Yee and the gang and the spaghetti was awesome! Definitely going back to try the Lamb Olio the next round. Love hanging out late at this hour, that feeling of 'freedom' is really priceless. Not that I'm always controlled or tied at home but I guess I seldom go out, partly lazy to get permission from my parents for late night makan like this.

I think I wasn't even 'present' when i was driving, God knows where my mind drifted to I drove pass this red traffic light and nearly got knocked down. The driver was really pissed off that he came chasing after me and gave me his pretty (NOT!) middle finger. Didn't even dare to look at him seriously but I'm really really sorry alright, I did not do that on purpose! :) Forgive me!

So finally, the day we've all been preparing for. Not only we put smiles on these people's face, but we touched lives. :) Yay to Campus Action Ministry!

Despite the really bad weather, everything went on smoothly just as what we planned. Brought the girls to FRIM, throw them an ice cream party (partying parting yeah!) and seriously, they were so happy! Authentically happy, if I can even use such a word to describe.

Anyway, I can't really post up pictures because we wanted to make sure the girl's identities are protected. I mean, the caretakers might not like that the girl's pictures are all over blogs and circulating online so it will only be posted on the Campus Action Ministry Facebook profile. But here's some other random shots taken on that day.

My favorite picture would be the second last one. See how well the girls bonded? They held hands! :)

Alright, that's about it! :)

x
Jessica L.

Gelatomio

2011-04-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

Spent lunch time with Ruth and since her class got canceled, headed to Times Square for Vivo instead of lunching at KL Central. Since Ruth craved for ice cream after shopping around for a while, we decided to hunt for ice cream and we found Gelatomio, which is on the 2nd floor. Thank God we decided to go for Gelatomio instead of Gelato Fruity because Gelatomio 's Dark Choc flavored ice cream tasted like heaven! Lol, am not a big ice cream fan, neither am I a fan of dark choc, but it was good, really really good in fact.

Urgh, tumblr is taking away my time for blogspot. LOL! Oh btw, I think tumblr would be perfect if they have this tagging system like Facebook. :) Easy for me to tag tag tag. :p

Alright, that's all. :)

x
Jessica L.

Tumblr lovin'

2011-04-11T01:17:00.001-07:00

I've become a tumblr addict

2011-04-08T07:42:00.000-07:00

You want to know what happiness is? It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but their own. You smile, kiss their face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake them. You turn back around and an involuntary grin forms on your own face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist, and you know it doesn’t get any better than this.
- Strawberrytelle ,Tumblr

Uhh no. Happiness is waking up in the middle night and REALISING I STILL HAVE A COUPLE MORE HOURS TO SLEEP. :D

2011-04-05T08:20:00.000-07:00

Little things said made me super happy on the other hand some little stuff done made me sad.

Contended

2011-04-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

While some people complain about the lack of privacy when there's lock/door to their bedroom (I wonder who!), there are 18 girls squeezing into a three bedroom single story house at the back of Taman Ehsan.

On the 19th of March, Campus Action Ministry launched our Love It project and we set to reach out to those who are lost, unfortunate and rejected. We split ourselves into different groups, and will be heading to different homes on the 16th of April to just bring a little extra happiness and joy to these people. Really fortunate to be able to co lead with Jo Yee and we will bringing 18 girls out for ice cream party and hopefully we can give them what we can, our time and also share what we are blessed with.

After talking to the people in charge and visiting their homes today to finalize some details, we had a chance to look around the home and even though the condition is not superbly bad, but when I compare myself with these people I feel so blessed and at a point I feel ashamed as well. These people worry whether they will have enough food (wahtai biscuits, milo and maggi mee) and I on the other hand worry about the clothes and make up I wear the next day and also not forget grumble about the little chores I need to do eg: drying clothes and sweeping the floor.

Life's unfair eh?From now on, I will not compare myself to those who are better and more fortunate than me but I will start to compare myself to these people and learn to be more and more thankful each day.

Thank you Lord! <3

Roaming around

2011-03-25T10:32:00.001-07:00

I will not give my heart away, until you are in my life to stay. - I Will Wait For You, Jackson Family

Definitely blessed by the Jackson family and Metro Tabernacle is glad to have your family with us! Though I must admit that it was totally out of what most of us expected and how stereotypical of us to think that a black family will be joining us instead of a white family because of the name 'Jackson'. Sorry, we are not racist/color-ist.. its just what we thought, and expected lol! The songs sung was also different, very different actually but still we were all blessed. Just like what Pastor Ong said, we now concentrate so much on individual worship and praising but we forget to come together as a family and worship as one.

Oh yeah, I swear I will never walk from Pavilion to KLCC anymore. Neither will I try to be a heroin walking around KL like nobody's business. Lol. But it was pretty cool okay. I like the time spent with myself (No!! Me no emo kid, spending time alone reminds me how independent I can be, and also the MCKL times, when I spend a lot of times walking around KL streets myself, lost in the crowd, no one knows you, you're like in a new country!). Like I said, I tried to be a heroin by walking from Pavilion to KLCC. Then walk to British Council to collect my IELTS results. It was so far away!

Anyway, here's the link to The Jackson Family's website. Listen to their songs, you'll be blessed!

Jackson Family Ministers

x
Jessica L.

Difference between living in denial and being positive.

2011-03-22T04:33:00.001-07:00

This have been in my head for some time and I just thought of blogging about it out of a sudden.

I think many of us live in denial but think they are being positive. At first, I really hate it when people say "hey, be positive, everything is going to be okay" because to me being positive equals to living in denial. But then when I start to question why the 'positiveness' I gain is so temporary? I thought it should actually make you feel better, stronger and wiser? I realize there is a difference between the two.

Example of living in denial :

"Ah, everything will be okay la. Your grades will be fine"
"Aiyah, he/she'll text/call me one lah, we're so meant to be together you know?"

And now see what a positive person will say instead :

"Its alright, I'll do better next time. It won't be good but I will work on it."
"Hmm, its alright, not the only fish I caught. Plenty out there! Not the right person, or maybe just wrong timing"

Living in denial gives you a taste of happiness. Temporarily, and then when reality kicks in, you start to feel all the insecurities you have and feel pretty damn depressed. Whereas if you stay positive and face the truth, it'll give you strength. Though, not many choose to face the truth and just see the brighter side of it. Its definitely tough but one thing I learn from being positive (not all the time I admit, I'm still human!) is that the happiness, confidence and satisfaction you gain is something real.

There's nothing wrong in living in denial, but wake up after maybe a few hours?

Something I yearn to do more :)

x
Jessica L.

Maybe most of the people
already know the difference,
I might be a lil slow.
But hey, I'm in my learning and growing stage.
This post reminds me
the importance of being positive. :)

If you just realize what I just realize

2011-03-19T09:11:00.000-07:00

I cannot read Lien Siaw's blog. I will start to tear when I hear the song she placed in her blog - What Are Words, by Chris Medina. Too good to be true, his fiance is definitely a lucky woman. :)

A superbly awesome day for me today. :) One sentence sums it all, a good bargain, and the feeling of being pampered, in a day.

Before I forget, congratulations your wedding, Suet Ling jie jie! :)

It's been so long since I last saw Suet Ling jie jie, all the while I usually visit my nanny but only Suet Yee jie jie will be around. Kor will be at JB so Suet Yee jie jie is the one I get to see most often. Being with them makes me feel really pampered. Especially when they all really take care of me and shower me with lots of hugs, and seriously, who doesn't want and like to be pampered? Will be joining another round of wedding back at Ipoh this Saturday and I can't wait! :)

The nanny

Suet Ling jie jie

My cheh chehs and kor kor

I'm such a small girl :D And I like this picture ;P teehee

Wokay, I should go. :)

Love,
Jessica L.

Sometimes I feel like
there's no proper ending
in my blogposts.
Like out of the blue,
I just say.. wokay time to go..
and that's it.
LOL.

Mini Farewell

2011-03-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I haven't been this rebellious for a long time. Had some plans for the night, and a sleepover at Grace's place but didn't get the approval from the parents. Honestly, I don't know why they don't allow, its not like I haven't go out till 12-1am in the morning without telling them where am I and with whom I'm with, but today... sigh. Till now I feel quite angry. I'm throwing a huge tantrum I haven't thrown for a long long long time and I know its bad. I really just wanna go hang out with Grace, Jeremy and Justin. And yes I'm still mad. 20 year old acting like 15.

Anyway, I still had a good time with Lien Siaw and Cheryl today. A mini farewell and also belated birthday lunch we owe Cheryl for not attending her party. Had shabu shabu for lunch and it was fun swapping food. If it was me, Ruth and Grace instead. We'll be throwing out the same food, and only eating the same food because our tastes are super similar.

Anyway, I should try to be good and do my Biopsychology revision. God, please help me to not be angry anymore, Amen.

x
Jessica L.

Half here, half there.

2011-03-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

So yes, I'm half in Malaysia, half in Sheffield now. :) I just got to know I've secured a placed with a condition in University of Sheffield and I'm feeling all the rush of different emotions. Happy, excited, and scared at the same time. What if I jinx it!?? :S

These things bring out the superstitious-ness in me. I always believe that if you want something and really wish for something, don't think about it, don't dream about it because it might just turn out to be the total opposite of what you want.

Ask Floyd, Felicia and Wai Yi, was asking them not to talk about it, am just afraid that its going to be jinxed. Floyd got annoyed and asked if I'm a Christian. LOL. Thus, no one other than my parents, Wai Yi, Felicia, Jeremy and Floyd knows about this. Will prolly not inform anyone else and since the people that would wanna know will read my blog, yes my conditional offer is here!!!! :)

Talking bout Felicia and Wai Yi. They've gotten their conditional offer a week earlier than me but because they're afraid that I will be affected so badly that I can't take my IELTS properly, they did not tell me anything. Well honestly, I'm touched that they took this move. I wouldn't even have known if I did not spend my free time with them today playing Taboo.

We were talking bout some random stuff and me being me, I probably ask them every few days if they've heard anything from Uni of Sheffield. Today, Wai Yi definitely got sold out by his expression. He gave me a 'no' with a very funny looking face, and then I asked Felicia who was siting next to him, she told me they've gotten the conditional offer.

I tell you, what I felt that time... cannot be explained. I was stunned for a moment, and told them I'm going to the office now to see if I've gotten any replies. Thank God my reply came today, if not...

Anyway, I'm definitely happy. Super happy. :) Thank you, Lord. You definitely know your daughter's desires. :)

x
Jessica L.

Chasing our dreams.

2011-03-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

Lots of love. :)

Waiting

2011-03-13T11:11:00.001-07:00

Its the 14th of March already, time seriously is ticking away just like that. Just when I start telling friends that hey I'm pretty free this month cause I just finish my mid terms, I sit down and check on my diary and realize I have tonnes to do. Due dates, class tests, wedding dinner, event launching etc etc and I wonder why I still can feel so relaxed and lazy. Please someone give me a smack on my head!

Everyone's leaving one by one... Vee Vian's back in India, Cheryl leaving on the 4th of April and then Lien Siaw will be leaving after that to Singapore. I'm literally the only one left here. :( University of Sheffield stop jual mahal-ing and accept me la!

Sigh, I should stop complaining and enjoy my time here. Anyway.. some pictures taken a few days ago but I'm just too lazy to post it up..

Marche with Ruth

Red Box with Lien Siaw and Vee Vian

Monopoly session with the uni gang.

I'm waiting for three things now.

1. Finish year 1, which also means June is around the corner.
2. The day when Current Crew reunite and have a reunion lunch/dinner/etc.
3. Get all the stuff ready and feel the pressure of leaving Malaysia.

Oh wait, before that, I should add one more thing into the list because without it, I won't be able to fulfill number 3. :)

4. WHERE THE HECK IS MY CONDITIONAL OFFER??!!??!!

Hehe wokay, I'm bouncing off. (I learn this from the yamcha session with Daniel. Bahaha!)

x
Jessica L.

Hyper mode

2011-02-28T01:41:00.000-08:00

What is the one thing that scares human most, I would like to know? Death? Drowning? Height? Losing someone they love? Hmm..

PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING (MKT 101) by Jess

One of the easiest process to learn to date is the adoption process for new products yet I found a pretty hilarious way to help myself remember it. Its a process consisting of only 5 words unlike the other process that's why its easy by the way. I came out with this by observing the times where Jeremy and Justin check out the girls in uni. :D

Okay so the adoption process begins with:

AWARENESS

STARS:
unknown pretty girl in yellow dress
Jeremy eating maggi mee
Justin with his mouth wide open

After being *aware* they will start to comment on her looks etc etc and when the girl fits their criteria of the one, they start to build INTEREST. Next they will EVALUATE, they'll say " hmm ya ya this one better than the previous one" Justin will say "F***ing nice la her.... what so ever" Then, they'll go on TRIAL mode, Justin cannot la if not Jocelyn will chicken chop him. (Jocelyn is the gf). Jeremy will go ask " Do you know where is Kepong?" (HAHAHAHAHA internal joke Jeremy you better read this) Okay Jeremy will ask something serious lah I guess.. like "Hey wanna join my dance club?" and if the girl is good in dancing, suits Jeremy 101%, settle lah, Jeremy will move to the ADOPTION stage. ;) Happy ending!

Wokay I'm just a lil hyper today thus the pretty random post. :D Stay tune for the next lesson on MKT 101 ;)

x

Good vs evil

2011-02-23T04:24:00.000-08:00

Daddy made me super happy today! :D Not that he don't make me happy on a daily basis, but he bought me an iPhone as a birthday gift! Supposed to give it to my mum but she says she don't need it. Good girl me told him he can use it first and I'll take over the 3GS which is good enough ady but well, he decided to let me have it. :)

The first brand spanking new phone I ever used! Previous phones were all hand me downs. :D

But everything something good happen, I can't help to think of the next worst thing that's gonna happen. I always think a good thing will follow by something bad. Like maybe I won't get any offer from Sheffield at all and will be so darn disappointed with myself. Or maybe, my midterm result's gonna suck badly. Oh crap :S

Anyway, I should stop thinking of all this stupid stuff and get back to ~~playing with my iPhone~~ STUDYING!

x

Gino's

2011-02-22T05:26:00.000-08:00

She's got a nice face,
her booty is in place,
but Barney don't do the chase - Barney Stinson, How I Met You Mother Season 6 episode 17.

If there's such a subject called How I Met You Mother, I would score an A+.

I am so damn perasan, siting in front of the my laptop waiting for the birthday wishes to flood my Facebook. Lol. But am the queen of the day, and I can get away with anything ;)

Grace brought ze queen out for dinner tonight and erm yes we went to not so awesome Tesco, but the Italian restaurant is all that matters. Pizza & pasta. :)

Despite wasting some time today and thanking everyone who wished me, managed to finish up Dr. Ananthi's work and there's no reason why I should be stressed out except for the midterms. Not like the exam time table sucks right, so seriously why am I always having migraines before my papers? :(

Anyhoo, won't let that ruin the 22nd of February and Grace, you so awesome! :) Thank you for the dinner also the time spent despite having a paper on Thursday. :) You ze best! <3 Lien, thank you for the blog dedication as well! <3

Orait, that's it. Till the next post!

Happy birthday, MISS AWESOME

2011-02-21T09:54:00.000-08:00

Dang, I'm 20!

And I'm following Barney's footstep. Look at my title. ;)

Literally

2011-02-20T22:42:00.000-08:00

A trait untraceable yet am searching for the signs. Living in denial much?

A true man doesn't promise, but commits. A true woman does not demand, but thanks.
- Marcin Mrowca

I cannot see an tattoo parlor because one day I might seriously impulsively go get a tattoo- always've been a dream to get one.

Mum's been really scolding me on the stuff I own and she says its time to sell them all off. She's getting a little excited or maybe its just her being a lil paranoid over me going to UK. Out of the blue she'll tell me 'you should cut your hair before leaving for UK' and then 'you better sell those clothes!' then 'come learn cook some dishes' Oh what the heck! Chill, I have a few more months and I haven't even gotten the conditional offer yet, ma!

A lot of things have been happening these few days and though that tinge of happiness is there I'm still frustrated. I need confirmation, need things to be organized I don't want to wait and see what will happen next even when I say that a gazillion times, that's pretty much my cover line. I take things TOO literally.

This morning, Grace really made me angry! ( Sorry but its the truth Grace!!!! ) Supposed to fetch her to uni today but then she couldn't wake up on time. And this is the 3rd of 4th time already! :S Hmm, you need a special alarm clock Grace! An alarm clock that holds a rotan and smacks you right on the butt and you would jump up and never fall sleep again! ;D lol

Orait, time to go get some serious work done. ;)

x
Jessica L.

15TH FEBRUARY. DEPARTURE.

2011-02-15T07:11:00.000-08:00

Finally, we sent off princess Jesslynn. Thank God there's no tears and we were all still laughing and enjoying the last few hours before Jesslynn flies off. It wasn't that sad after all, because like I always tell her, YOU WILL HAVE TONNES OF FUN! ;) We'll all be in each other's heart too eh? <3

I'm missing you already BTW.

Today's the there where I feel all sorts of emotions. Happy, excited, sad, annoyed and also afraid.
Research Assistant Day 1
Phew, never thought the job can be this tough. No regrets that I took up the job tho. ;) Only got about 10 participants and I realize, I'm not as brave as I thought I would be. But still, I spent 2 hours trying to find participants at Desa Park City.
Research Assistant Day 2
Thought things would be a lot better today because today, I plan to approach people whom I already know. Still there was some not so nice experience in between, my neighbors and friend's parents are all really nice people who willingly fill up the survey for me. Spent about 1 hour walking around my stretch, ding on the ding dong bells and still got rejected twice. Nevermind, shit happens.

Waiting for the next few days to come, and can't wait to complete all the survey forms!

I shall do my PSY106 revision now.

Love,
Jessica L.

Adious

2011-02-13T04:04:00.001-08:00

While typing this post, The Jar Of Heart by Christina Perri is playing from Lienn's blog, and I'm also looking through our Current Crew Farewell Lunch photo album on Jesslynn's FB profile. I tell you... if you understand how I feel, tears will roll down your cheek.

In one more day time, Jesslynn will be leaving for Australia. Previously I haven't felt any sadness or emotions yet (except for joy that she got into a great university!) but now that its one day away I can't help but get the flashbacks of memories from the high school days.

Anyway, we had a reunion cum farewell lunch today at 全一, Desa Park City to celebrate 3 events.

1. Kicking Jesslynn out of Malaysia
2. Welcoming Vian back from India for a short semester break
3. CNY, duh.

While in the car driving to Desa Park with Jesslynn, Jesslynn asked how long would our Current Crew friendship last. I told her, very long. I'm sure all this people will be around for each another's special events (i.e: wedding) but it would be pretty tough to gather all of us together already after this because, Jesslynn's in Australia, Vee Vian will be at India, Lienn might be an air stewardess, I most probably will be going to UK this September and Guo Liang will be too. Nevertheless, I believe our friendship is stable enough that when we meet altogether once again, we have so many things to tell each other, and not those, 'awman, awkward silence gathering" .

So yeah, after all the fun, we should all go chase after our own dreams, but have each other at heart and keep those awesome memories at the most important storage in our brain and have a good laugh once in while when we have flashbacks and especially when times are really bad, you know that they are all there for you. Prolly not all are a phone call away, but an FB click away? ;)

"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up."

Cheers to our friendship!

Jessica L.

Masa terbang ;)

2011-02-10T09:08:00.000-08:00

Last year's today :

Though this is not the awesomest photo, but there's so many memories painted in it. Vee Vian was still here last year, and this year we will be sending Jesslynn away in a few days time. This may also be the last time we'll get to sit at Lien Siaw's house and celebrate the 8th day of CNY.

I wonder what will I be doing in next year's today? Am sure going to look back at this picture and all of a sudden all the memories will start flashing back and you wish you could slow time down for a moment.

I honestly don't know if I'm having a writer's block or just plain tired, but I just can't put so many things into words. This explains the emptiness and lack of updates in this blog. Would be getting busier in the weeks to come and yes! I got chosen out of the many applicants to be Dr. Ananthi's research assistant. Praying hard that I would be able to balance things out. I just figure that when there's piles and piles of work waiting for you to do, you'll just automatically get up on your feet and start organizing and sort all the work out. ;)

Anyway, how rude of me today. I hope I didn't scare this one person off and I'm definitely apologizing when I see him next. Was rushing and didn't realize anything till Shiro pointed it out. Oh well, gives me another shot to really talk to this new friend ;)

Alright, I'm signing off.

Jessica L.

Emotions

2011-02-04T21:40:00.000-08:00

Haters are undercover fans, damnitstrue!
There's so many things I wanna say as all this funny emotions come rushing in, but I don't know how to put all these into words. I thank You Lord for all the troubles we all face because through these troubles, we all learn to trust You and our faith just grows.

Hope its still not too late to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year! This year's new year is pretty alright, not much of visiting done and the usual people who stays at my granddad's house during CNY now have a new family after their son welcome a new born baby! And it would be weird to share a room with your father and mother in law?! Thus the home now is a lot quieter.

The 'think too much' gene definitely run in my mother's family, and too bad, I got it in my blood too! This year, I realize how much my granny loves me. She told us all while crying that she don't want me to go to the UK, and she's already missing me a lot. Then suddenly, my mum say to her: "Aiya, maybe shes not going leh!"

Man! Just when I feel like I'm really heading to Sheffield after my young uncle said goodbye and "See you at Sheffield", my mum had to tell my granny that I might just not get an offer and won't go to the UK after all. -.-

Anyway, I shall end with this, the only picture I've taken with my cousins and err my sister.

damn, put on too much weight! :(

Happy CNY! Love, Jessica L.

I have a dream.

2011-01-21T02:31:00.001-08:00

I just have to blog about this.
I cannot stand people (guys especially) who are :

1. Fickle minded, especially on food and places they want to eat at or go.
2. Bad at directions. Not that I'm really good at it but come on, guys should be good at this.
3. Cannot seem to stand up for himself.

Went all the way to University of Leeds office to apply to transfer there but all we, Felicia, Wai Yi and myself got was being served by one bossy manager who seems to know nothing about University of Leeds. Except for the 3.0CGPA requirement she told us about. Their first impression is really bad and I'm praying hard I'll get at least a conditional offer for now from University of Sheffield and UCAS haven't send us the Welcome email/letter yet!

Thought filling up the application form is the worst part of the application, but now I realize, waiting for a reply from the university is the worst. Lol. Patience, patience!

I was in a TV room with a bunch of people,
seemed like university student to me, and
we were all watching an award show that combined all
US, China, Taiwan and Korean artist together.

I was sitting at the right hand side of the room with three girls.
Can only rmbr two of them tho,
white girls.

NEXT SCENE

Da Mouth, a Taiwan band was given an award.
Their MV was played once they were announce the winner,
and I started jumping on my seat,
and started dancing and shouted woot! woot!
Think I'm a huge fan of them in my dreams.
AND NO,
I'm not a fan of them in reality.

NEXT SCENE

I somehow am sited in the middle of the room now
with someone I don't know.
A guy.
Next to him, was a girl.
They seem to nor know each other.
Don't know how, we were sitting really close to each other.
and I just lean on his shoulders.
Then I hugged his arm and he held my hands.
Suddenly,
the girl next to him started to do the same! -.-
I then let go of him, cause
I guess in my dreams,
I'm not that kind who fight for the guy I like.
hahaha.

And yes, he's really hot. :)
Really nice arms ;)
I wanna go back to this dream,
and see what happened next.
hehe.

x
Jessica L.

Ignorance, not blisful.

2011-01-19T20:28:00.001-08:00

Jealousy is the ugliest trait, don't ever do it. -Keri Hilson, Pretty Girl Rock

But how? You work so hard for something, but then your close friend worked even harder, the worst part? Behind your back? Can't help but feel like I'm left in the dark, I need to know. I don't believe that ignorance is bliss. Not blissful at all!

Oh, oh, oh, at last!

2011-01-15T08:32:00.000-08:00

Oh yes, am finally done with the UCAS application! Three more other applications to go but at last I'm done with UCAS. Now its time to pray hard, very hard in fact that I get admitted into the university I want! :) My heart's set on Sheffield! ;)

“Few women admit their age. Few men act theirs.”

2011-01-14T09:38:00.000-08:00

Despite blowing a pretty big sum of cash today, I guess its a must because I celebrated three very important people's birthday today : Jesslynn, Dickson & Jo Yee.

I don't know why but I've overslept for two days in a row now, and thank God, I still made it for tutorial sign up in the morning. Headed to University of Sheffield's office to talk to the person in charge for the application and she was darn talkative! She made me like Sheffield a lot though!

Met up with the "Current Crew" at Marche's for lunch and was really glad that we finally have a 2011 reunion lunch because we haven't seen each other for sometime now. Continue yam cha-ing at Al-Safa after lunch till 6pm, and busy me and Jesslynn went home to prepare for the next event of the day.

This one was MASSIVE I tell you. Planned by her very own beloved boyfriend, a surprise dinner at Sri Ayutthaya attended by 17 close friends of Jo Yee. Definitely awesome and I feel whole. :D In the afternoon, I spent it with my the closest and the people I've spent my high school days with and at night, I spent it with the people whom I grow spiritually with. If you don't call that 'whole' what would you call whole huh?

Birthday girl <3>

Birthday boy <3>

Current Crew aka my BSD kakis

My boys (or men? :D )

Not to forget, my girls! This picture is my current desktop background. :)

The girl who's turning 21 soon ;)

Brothers & sisters in Christ :)

Mysel, Jesslynn and Jo Yee

Not to forget, Jojo's knight in shinning armor, and the mastermind behind the whole surprise dinner for her princess. :)

Alright, that's all for now ;)

x
Jessica L

R.I.P 2010

2011-01-02T07:01:00.000-08:00

Things that happened in December :

Five months ago, I loved, then I told, We talked, I found out, I cried, I doubt, I went mad, I sat and think through, I prayed, I trusted, I grew STRONGER. But, the worst might just be coming really soon, hanging on to God even tighter this year.

26th December 2010 : CAM LOL! Christmas BBQ party

Madness Ice cream competition, ice cream "build" by team Ngek Ngek.

30th December 2010 : Last 2010 dinner with Jesslynn and Lien Siaw @ D Pastry Chef

This is a pretty small restaurant and am pretty sure everyone looked at us when we were taking pictures of ourselves. In their heads they should be wondering: "where these jakuns came from!" Definitely awesome though, missed those yamcha sessions with my BSD kakis.

This year,

my first resolution is:

to write my personal statement and settle university applications to UK by the 14th of January.

Second resolution :

complete the entire Bible reading according to the Bible reading plan.

Totally achievable ay? ;) Honestly, being a Christian for 19 years now, its such a shame to admit that I actually never read the entire Bible, yet.

The first awesome event of the year is definitely sleeping over at our so called "3J's Villa". Spent a night at daddy's apartment at Mont Kiara with Joyee and Jesslynn. Definitely an awesome night, we girls need another sleepover again! Before Jesslynn leaves for Aussieland. No pictures taken because.. no one brought cam :(

These coming few months will be the months of restoration for me, or should I say, the three of us. The air is pretty clear now, prolly still some issues to settle between the two of them. Though I must admit there's fear in me, we're human so its natural to fear, fear of the pain that will hit me. But instead of protecting myself, I chose to trust, because I realize, one's thought to protect themself is a sign of immaturity, insecurity. This year is definitely a year for me to break out of my shell, and find security in the Lord.

Anyway, I just have to say this though its totally unrelated to the things I wrote in this post, I love Hoegaarden. Much thanks to Ruth for introducing this beer. Not a drinker but Hoegaarden is definitely tasty! Ohno! Am hooked!

In 2010
Ke$ha told us who we are,
Enrique Iglesias told us what he likes,
Nicki Minaj told us to check it out,
Mike Posner asked us not to go,
Nelly said it was just a dream,
Rihanna claims she doesn't know her name,
Taylor Swift says she'd go back to December,
Usher says the DJ is trying to make him fall in love,
Trey Songz says he likes how we shake it our jeans,
&& Pink told us to raise our glass.
Here we come, 2011!
- Marcin Mrowca aka Quote whore
(ahem, he's a dude, a man whore)

X
Jessica L.

3 weeks late

2010-12-29T05:07:00.001-08:00

The thorn is definitely still there, and you can feel the pain whenever its there, cause it constantly pokes you.

Its definitely not easy making the right decision, the wisest of all wisest choice. But, what to do?

I'm still human, so I still feel pain.

I am 3 weeks late.

DPC with Ruth Love

2010-12-21T07:05:00.000-08:00

Christmas is only 3 days away and I'm so so so excited! Since Ruth and I won't be able to celebrate Christmas together on the day itself, we celebrated it anyway, just 3 days earlier!

Our supposed plan was to go to Skytrex, but thinking that Grace is on the least extreme side so we thought she might be able to join us cycling around the park in Skytrex. She didn't know how to cycle anyway, and we din't really know how to get to Shah Alam where Skytrex is so plan changed. Brought Ruth to Desa Park City instead, remembering that there's a bicycle shop that rents bicycle. So even without going all the way to Skytrex, we still get to cycle, lah. Rental was expensive though compared to other places but it was all worth it.

Met up with Grace after that for lunch, De Pastry Chef is one of the best restaurant around Manjalara area. :) Totally ordered the wrong dish though because I couldn't remember that Fetucinni Cabonara actually comes with a whole lot of seafood : big prawns, squids and lalas, and the funniest part is that the three of us have the same taste on food, we all hate seafood.

I somehow can't wait for Semester 2 to begin. I wanna get my results quick so I can really get over my UCAS application. So many worries and stress link to it and its a big decision maker for a lot of things in my life.

Though currently, my parents are asking me to consider going only in my third year. Sigh.. nevermind, this is a eustress- a stress that is actually good for health, so called lah..

Alright, I'm off to watch 公主嫁到, I'm disappointed with Charmaine Sheh though.

x Jessica L.

The fullness of God's timing

2010-12-11T22:12:00.000-08:00

Definitely a practical sermon shared by Rev. Ong today at church. Jesus was sent in God's perfect timing. There's nothing too hard for our almighty and powerful God, but everything has and will be done in his timing. His promises to us is one matter on its own, His timing and when He will give us what He promised us is another thing.

As it is written in the book of Acts 1:6-8

Then they gathered around him and asked him, “Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?”He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

God's priority is not to make us happy, but to keep us fighting the good fight of faith!

Orait, I'll sit here,be a good girl and wait on Your time, Lord! :D

Run

2010-12-11T09:46:00.000-08:00

I call it my "逃避空间" , a place in my memories for me to run and hide. I'll try to feel how I felt when I was on a holiday. Missing Korea!

woah, snow looks real, eh?! :D

Caroling at Henry Butcher was fun! Am in the Christmas mood I tell you, and I'm waiting for the 15th of December. Just hmm, 3 more days away!

The only picture of us, and we all look like.... chipmunks? ;S lol

Alright, off to bed. :)

x
Jessica L.

乱

2010-12-10T07:04:00.000-08:00

今天性情很乱。不好受。
In exactly 24 hours, I will be sitting in the exam hall, doing my PSY105 paper.

思念

Ho ho ho, not!

2010-12-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

I imagine, then I dream, I dream, then I imagine all over again. Lol. Can't wait for the future to be unfold!

Oh my.. am so in the Christmas mood, but am stuck with finals! ONE MORE WEEK and I'm done with my first semester! :D This Friday, despite finals, I'm going caroling at Henry Butcher's company party! My first time caroling, and am so so so excited!

Santa, Can You Hear Me - Britney Spears

Santa, can you hear me ?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here
Santa that’s my only wish this year.

Alright, quite the "potong", time to do some final revision for PSY113, and I shall go to sleep!

x
Jessica L.

DEFINITELY A GOOD CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR!
& I CLAIM THAT! ;)
JJJJJJJYEAH!
okok, am on exam fever.

United for Humanity bazaar

2010-11-29T06:46:00.001-08:00

Finally got my hands on the pictures taken at the United for Humanity Bazaar! :) Much thanks to Farisha! My booth looks rather pathetic so there's no pictures of the booth. Farisha's cupcakes are super awesome, me and my sister both had three each, there goes my RM24! Was a little disappointed with the crowd, I guess many were there to just look around, non really came to shop.

Left at 7pm, and headed to The Curve. Popeye's for dinner and made Grace a happy girl because she bought a bridal magazine that only cost her RM5! Yes, bridal magazine, she's just really really excited to get married!

Talking bout weddings, the only thing I think off are wedding dresses! I'm still in the midst of deciding whether I should attend the Bpsych annual ball. One main reason I'll go : I get to wear gorgeous long dresses!

Alright, here are the pictures.

Definitely a rough day for me.
Felt that my 'oldself' have emerged,
and totally lost control on my own feelings,
and my feelings took over my consciousness,
and that seriously drive me crazy.
Leaning on the Lord and feeding on his word,
He'll be my guide.

Love,
Jessica L.

Uniqlo : OVER RATED

2010-11-25T04:42:00.000-08:00

Finally, our first hang out after being friends for more than 5 years. Jeremy had some stuff to do at Bukit Bintang and since I was free after collecting my questionnaires, decided to meet him there. Took a look at UniQlo, and I think its pretty much over rated!

Went feasting at Lot 10's food court and I tell you, the char siu pizza is a must try!

After today, can't seem to stop thinking back to those short months we had and how much you've understand me in this short period, more than those who've known me for 5 years.

The Curve, I'm expecting more than this alright! You'll do better than Fehrenheit!

Tmr, there will be a bazaar organized for the United for Humanity campaign at Help from 12pm-10pm at Help Main Block, Lower Foyer. It'll be the very first time I'm setting up my own booth with Grace & Cheryl.

Alright, signing off.

Love,
Jessica L.

We're wonderfully made

2010-11-24T04:55:00.000-08:00

Ever thought :

"Sigh, if you just have that little something you're lacking, you'd be perfect."

But then, think again, maybe the lack of that little something made you attractive!

Such an awesome quote, by awesome ME.

Grace, Ruth & Myself definitely need to go for another mini retreat again! TIME TO BERBONDING! <3

LOL
Jessica L.

Then, on the other hand, that little something extra you have,
make you a really annoying person!

Rapunzel 3D

2010-11-23T09:06:00.000-08:00

Rapunzel was awesome! Thanks Fly FM for 4 awesome invites. Now, I want longggggggggg blonde hair! Was disappointed that The Curve's Christmas deco isn't up yet! I'm expecting something when I come next month! ;)

Love,
Jessica L.

Goodbye, research methodoloy

2010-11-22T07:15:00.001-08:00

Finally done with our Research Methodology proposal! Much thanks to our meeting spots at Desa Park City, New Zealands Natural Ice Cream & Fitou. Yes, we drink and did our work at the same time. How amazing is that?!

Rose tea @ NZ Natural Ice Cream , Long Island @ Fitou Brasserie

Goodbye, you 105. I'm off to bed!

Love,
Jessica L.

4pm. No fate today.

Taeyang Hunt day 3-7

2010-11-21T03:45:00.000-08:00

Mad Race went so well yesterday, was glad that the prize money went out to the visitors rather than our own church members, definitely worth our blood, sweat and money preparing & organizing this event. What's better is the friendship and experience we gain from being the organizers and money cannot buy that.

Alright, so now I really have some spare time to blog, I should really continue with my Korea trip, if not I'll forget bout it totally and have no diary to refer to when I want to know which are the places I've been to in Korea. Its going to be a long post, bear with me ;)

DAY 3- Myeong Dong, Seoul Tower & Teddy Bear Museum
Since it was a Saturday, uncle Choi spent the day with us. His wife as usual prepared really sumptuous breakfast for us and I tell you, I've never felt so healthy before. Back here in Malaysia, my breakfast is sleep, and I thought that was the best breakfast anyone could ever have, but I was wrong. Look at the breakfast Uncle Choi's wife prepared and you'll know!

An hour after breakfast, Uncle Choi brought us out for more food! It was a restaurant around his house, so we took a walk instead of driving. Had awesome bulgogi! We were all so full from breakfast, but it still tasted nice. I wonder how nice it would be if we were actually really hungry!

After lunch, we took the subway to Myeong Dong, one of the famous shopping areas but the things here are pretty expensive cause it was a rather high class area. You can see LV and other branded stores here. If food is the reason you're heading to Korea, you definitely have to stop by here. The ladies can shop till they really drop, and those who doesn't fancy shopping as much can go food hunting. Make sure your tummy is empty before going!

It was rather crowded to take a nice picture of the place, and now, looking back at the picture, it all looks like its taken at the same place, but am sure it isn't! It just look so similar!

Uncle Choi brought us to see the Seoul Tower next. Was pretty disappointed because it was so misty that it blocked out pretty much the whole Seoul view we were supposed to see while taking the cable car to the Seoul tower. Nonetheless, I was glad I got to visit the teddy bear museum, it was one of its kind!

We then walked back to Myeong Dong again for dinner at Jung Sung Bon Shabu Suki after visiting Seoul Tower. As the restaurant's name suggest, we had shabu shabu, and at the end of the shabu shabu, they poured rice into the same pot that cooked shabu shabu and made "chuk" in cantonese, also means porridge. Passed by a really nice guess house, definitely a place I would splurge on, too romantic to pass. :)

Roam around Myeong Dong night street, and headed home after grabbing a few items. Things I bought for the day:

Day 4- Hyundai Mall, Kyeong Bok Gung & In Sa Dong

Never a day we missed breakfast here at Korea, today's breakfast special, Korean Curry & Rice.

Daddy and mummy went to church together with Uncle Choi's family. They had to drive since they were late, so Andre & myself stayed at home cause they only had one car. That explains the time I had to blog about my 2nd day in Korea and also upload the photos onto Facebook. Headed to Hyundai mall, which was located at Sin Cheon after church for lunch. A rather special meal because I've never tried Chinese styled Korean food before. Lunch was at a restaurant named Mei Chai. Since it was individual meal so I didn't really snap any photo here.

Boarded a bus right infront of Yon Sei university, one of the top listed university in Korea. Visited the Gyeong Bok Gung next.

I really enjoyed myself at the palace. The palaces were stunning and all uniquely designed, always loved traditional buildings!

Uncle Choi brought us to In Sa Dong next. 'Dong' basically means neighborhood. Here at In Sa Dong, you'll find everything art related, suitable for art and nature lover. Things sold here are unique, but pricey as well. :(

Dinner was at a restaurant called Choi's Garden. Its actually a double story house, but converted into a restaurant. Here, we got to taste truly traditional korean food, the traditional Kim Chis and 20 kinds of side dishes. Took individual picture of the side dishes, but am so lazy to post it up here. Anyway, dinner was good but not the best, don't quite know how to enjoy the side dishes, a bit too bizarre. LOL.

DAY 5- Nam Dae Mun & Dong Dae Mun

Had cornflakes and milk for breakfast, and parted ways with daddy, Andre & Eryn. Headed to Nam Dae Mun with mummy and daddy brought the others to Lotte World. Sadly, clumsy me left the memory card at uncle Choi's house so daddy couldn't snap any pictures at Lotte world. Craving for the same Rameon Noodles I ate on the 2nd day, and I actually went for Rameom noodles again for lunch. I went myself and mum continued her 'hunting'. I tell you, their Rameon noodles's fantastic. Though it robbed away RM6 just for a packet noodle, it was good.

Tried to locate a mall at Dong Dae Mun but failed to, and that time felt seriously lost and left out in the cold, and thank God, there were stalls by the road selling food so we filled our tummies there, smack right out in the cold!

Took the bus back to Nam Dae Mun to meet with daddy but daddy took a long time to arrive. While walking to the bus station, it rained, imagine that! It was cold enough, the rain made it so much colder! To keep ourselves warm, we hide inside a speedmart just like 7-11 after reaching Nam Dae Mun station. Thankfully the worker on the night shift was kind enough, he was an elderly man. Still strong tho, amazing!

DAY 6- Prayer Mountain

The bus ride up to prayer mountain was horrible to be honest. The people weren't too friendly, unlike Malaysians, and we had to stand all the way through the 1 hour journey. My head was spinning by the time I reach, was thinking, how can people pray in this state. Lol. Went and visit Yoido Full Gospel church as well, according to dad, its a must visit.

Quick bite at a road side stall and I had a sausage bun. Pretty decent, not the best sausage bun I've tasted. Their stall specialty is this Korean type of fishcake. Everytime you see this stalls at Korea, they'll be selling fishcakes. I think the only difference will be their soup. This stall was particularly stingy with their soup! :(

Had the same thing at Dong Dae Mun the previous night

Well believe it or not, we went to Nam Dae Mun again. Mum couldn't find the stuff she was looking for, and yes! I had Rameon noodles again. Ohmy, I'm craving for Rameon Noodles! Daddy brought Andre & Eryn to Itaewon instead.

Met up with daddy in the evening, and he brought us to Dong Dae Mun. Had dinner at Doota mall, as funny as the mall sounds, its a really nice mall. Small but artistic. Cozy too! Dinner was pretty good. Normal Korean food, beef & rice & kimchi.

photo credited to whoever who shot it, thanks!

It was way to cold to walk outside, so we headed home instead. Time to pack up and get ready to head back to Malaysia. Things I got for the day,

Day 7- Seoul World Cup Stadium

Before leaving, we had approximately half a day to do our final visiting and shopping. Since we haven't seen the Seoul World Cup Stadium yet, decided to go there and shop around as well. According to mum, they convert the whole ground floor into Carrefour, but when we went there, it was Home Plus instead. Did some final purchasing, had lunch, and mum bought a few pots of flowers -.- according to her, she need to decorate her booth at Hartamas Shopping Mall. My mum's a worst shopaholic than me I tell you.

Things I got for today,

Since it was our last day here at Korea, Uncle Choi's wife cooked us dinner before sending us to the airport.

original kim chi, according to uncle Choi, original kim chi is not made up of cabbage.

The best duck meat ever! Till not I still cannot believe its duck meat.

cause I actually hate duck meat!

After dinner, Uncle Choi send us to In Cheon International Airport. On the way, we saw a lot of nice grand cars followed by escorts and police cars, we were all guessing if one of the car was going to fetch Obama from the airport. Oh cause, the next day they'll be having the G20 global meeting. Because of that, we had a tough time at the airport. The guards made us take out everything from our hand carry bags and bag pack. Kesian the guard that check my things though, he kept on saying sorry, I just snatch the items back when he return it to me. Lol.

Overall, it was an awesome trip. Sad that I didn't really get to buy clothes because of the winter season but still, thankful that I have the opportunity to visit this blessed country. Also, a big thank you to Uncle Choi's family for hosting us and take such great care of us! Definitely waiting to host you in return next January when you visit Malaysia. Well just a note, our house is not as neat and clean as your house. :D

Alright, that's it! Anyong!

Love,
Jessica L.

Love that you're so thorough and detailed. Well I don't quite know that English word. Hmmph.

Am missing you, Rameon noodles!

FROYO

2010-11-12T08:56:00.000-08:00

I know you feel like you have the right to be sarcastic and look down at me because you have three awesome grown up successful children who were graduates of prestigious universities and were scholarship holders as well. I would like to say, I don't really care, I don't live for you nor is anything I do to glorify your name but my Father in heaven's name. He wouldn't care how good my grades are or am I on scholarship, as long as I put in my effort and am answerable to Him, I'm happy. So you, I did not feel bad when you ask your sarcastic question : "So, how's Help Uni College ar?" Am standing proud, doing my BPsych program.

Too awesome a day not to blog about, though there's nothing really special, ahem, Tutti Frutti made it special yo! Had it for 2 days in a row, yesterday with Grace at Times Square, and with Tim today at BSC.

AWESOME FROYO!
I hope to have it everyday till I grow fat FAT & FAT!

Anyway, all pictures taken in Korea are up on Facebook. Am really lazy to blog, but will do sometime soon. Have quite some stuff on my plate now so... ;)

Love,
Jessica L

Taeyang hunt DAY 2

2010-11-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

Hello hello from Korea! Missing KL much, but am only 3 days away from coming home! Can't wait to give my pillow a BIG HUG!

Korea is an AWESOME country! Everything is clean and beautiful and the transport system here is just super organized! Have been eating A LOT of beef. Much thanks to Uncle Choi and his family for allowing us to stay at his place and I truly experience the Korean life!

Since we arrived here at night on our first day, Uncle Choi brought us home to take a rest and nothing much could be done cause it was late already. So here's what I did on my second day at Korea! I had to write all the details down just incase I forget!

Breakfast was at Uncle Choi's house, his wife had bread, milk and salad ready for us. Took the bus to Nam Dae Mun and headed to this mall-like place called Lengdang.It was SO CROWDED I tell you, hard to breathe!!! Daddy, Eryn and Andre went to Dong Dae mun instead because at Lengdang, most of the stuff are for women.

Lunch was at this random restaurant by the streets, the beef and soup was fantastic! And of course, I needed rice. Lunch with my mum here cost us RM40. And it wasn't any fancy restaurant, just a regular roadside sorta restaurant you see by the Kepong roads. Too bad, camera was with daddy, no pictures of this restaurant :(

Continued shopping at Lengdang, it got a really boring cause everything there is just accessories! Itching for new clothes and shoes and bags yo! Shopped till Lengdang closes at 5pm, so we met up with daddy to walk around the Nam Dae Mun streets. Things there were pretty cheap, compared to Myeong Dong (will be in my post on Day 3) But actually, NOTHING is cheap here at Korea!

Dinner was at this street that only sell fish, and the funniest thing is everyone will beg you to go to their restaurant. There's this lady who spoke Mandarin, I guess it definitely helped, and made us feel a little more at home, so we decided to try her restaurant.

Han river was the next destination, lucky us, it was lantern festival here so there were performances and also a parade of lanterns on the river itself. Initially, it didn't hit me that there may be performances by the Korean boy bands, till I see bunch and bunch of girls running to the stage area. I got quite in the mood, and started walking to see if its Big Bang or TVXQ. But then, they started singing, and it wasn't any song that I know, so I guessed that it should be some band that I didn't really know.

Things I bought so far,

Alright, that's about it. I'll be back soon! ;)

oh btw, it was BEAST that was performing. You know them? Well, I don't.

Koreaaaaa

2010-11-03T04:27:00.000-07:00

Anyonghaseyo.

Leaving for the beautiful country, Korea, tomorrow! Can't deny that part of me wants to stay back, but well, I'm going anyhow. (GET EXCITED JESSICA!!!)

One thing I can't wait to do, is to dress up in a very different way compared to how I dress up in Malaysia. Due to the weather there, I have to wear really really thick clothes, and layer up. Finally have a chance to wear boots, knitted tops and the leather jacket that has been rotting in my closet for some time now. Have been doing a bit of research on winter fashion, not getting much out of it though. :(

Anyway, lazy me didn't wanna drive, so Grace took over the driver's seat, and I had time to cam~~whore~~!

naega dangsin-eul geuliwohabnida

Ahh, can't wait for ma & pa to reach home tonight! ;) Awesome shopping at Beijing I heard, I hope there's awesome stuff for me too ;)

Till I come back from Korea. :)

mambo no. 5,
Jessica L.

Full time sis, part time mum

2010-10-31T09:57:00.000-07:00

Just a note that the title of my blog post below ("love life") doesn't mean that I'm writing bout my love life -.- , it merely means loving my life.

Enjoyed toady, I don't know why. Really tired this week, juggling between my mother's job as a mum and a businesswoman, a sister and a student. Hectic, eh?

To be honest, despite the tiredness, I'm actually thankful that I have the chance to go through this, not only it will be somewhat beneficial for myself in the future when I have my own child, yes child, means ONE, it made me stronger and maturer. Definitely feeling the sacrifices my parents made bringing up not only me but my other 2 siblings as well. Phew, really salute you ma & pa.

Time for bed.

Eryn's full time sister, part time mum.

Love life

2010-10-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

Uni life's just getting busy and busier. Just as I thought I could take a break after the long lectures and meetings while waiting for my daddy, this girl tapped on my shoulder and told me :

" That girl is asking for you " pointing at a girl sitting on a wheelchair.

Of course, the first thing that came into my mind was shit, did I do something wrong? And there were people around her, all really quiet and looking at me.

Walked up to her, and she say shakily :

" I need you to help me "

Being really skeptical and one who's full of question, I bombarded her with a question :

" What do you need me to help you with? "

Of course, you have to be specific la. I can't say sure without knowing what she needed from me eh? She just said :

" I need you to come with me to the 9th floor to hand in my assignment because I have spasms "

Ahh, now I get it, no wonder she's a bit shaky. I was really scared, and also worrying for my own safety. I guess I watch too much CSI and Saw and who knows she's just acting to be sick and then kidnap me after we go to the 9th floor? Or maybe, she'll snatch my bag and my laptop I was holding?

Hahaha, okay, sorry la for the drama, there was just so many thing running through my head that time. Plus, I looked at the student ID she carried around her neck, and the picture just didn't look like her. Being a skeptic, I asked her name. Holding on to her assignment, wanted to see if the name matches. Well, it did.

Anyway, she asked another 2 girls to help, all three of us are not friends of hers, just random strangers. When we reach the 9th floor, had to help her print out stuff, and the worst thing was, she asked us to pay for her.

" Can you please pay for me, I will pay you back tomorrow. "

-.-

To me, everything happens for a reason. Even small events like this. Prolly God wants me to appreciate life more. ;O

x

2010-10-24T22:55:00.001-07:00

Definitely an awesome day :) && I finally tried banana leaf rice at Nirvana, much thanks to Tim.

Cheers to the many more happy days to come!

Newly weds

2010-10-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

MAMA CASS - DREAM A LITTLE DREAM OF ME
Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say "Night-ie night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on, dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be

Dream a little dream of me

Ish ish ish, I'm in the lovey dovey mode though I have no one to be lovey dovey with, this song's just... make you melt :D All leapyear's fault!

Just got back from a relative's wedding dinner. I love wedding dinners! But wait, the reason is simply because I can doll up and experiment with the makeups. :D Chinese being Chinese, they'll say it starts at 7pm, but then the dishes only come at 9pm. The waiters and waitresses took an unnecessary parade on the stage, holding onto their dishes. But there was something different at today's particular dinner, Uncle Jimmy invited 2 really young magician siblings, age 13 and 17. The girl could not only perform really good magics, but sang really really well!

My mum's side family, but this are the one who are directly related to the newly weds. Honestly, I don't remember their specific name-to-call in Mandarin, I prefer calling aunty/uncle. :D

er, me? :)

my handsome papa. :D

magician cum singers.

Alright that's all peeps. :) Night-ie night!

Love, Jessica L.

Saw vs Leapyear

2010-10-22T12:44:00.000-07:00

Feeling too much pain from watching Saw so I decided to watch some comedy instead. Didn't know that I would stumble upon a romantic comedy, Leap Year.

Then I realized, (after not watching romantic shows for quite some time) how much of a sucker I am for romantic comedies like this, and I cried my eyes out! Lawl.

Oh well, I'm still very much a girl. :) Not giving up on action movies though. :)

Hello, from the library.

2010-10-21T00:22:00.000-07:00

Hello from the uni library. Am supposed to complete my LLS assignment but after getting some juicy but rotten information from Floyd during lunch just now, I came digging for more information online. ;)

Apart from breaking 2 pairs of sandals this month, and had to walk barefooted at Bangsar Shopping Center while searching for the cheapest pair of flats, nothing much interesting to blog about, really. :( Btw, the cheapest pair of flats I found cost me RM80. Some sailor-like striped flats. And it only cost 7 pounds in UK. I could have bought 2 pairs of these if I'm at UK now.

After finishing final mid term paper yesterday, met up with Serene at The Curve for her belated birthday lunch. Had an awesome time at Marche and it was worth burning that RM33 for awesome food they served! :) Totally regretted not bringing the camera! Definitely going back there again and this time, planning to go with the CAM people, and lets get our 'scam secret' going!

Till the next update, love.

Jessica L.

Flydol

2010-10-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

There'll be an audition tomorrow for Fly FM Flydol, and I think I'll be going.

my parents know nothing about it.

Emo post.

2010-09-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO BE FEELING-LESS
really do....

Random happenings

2010-09-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

Before I start, I shall dedicate part of this post to Vee Vian, as she'll be leaving for India very very soon! Awesome memories will definitely last, and I'll never forget that we four girls have to open our boutique one day named Jessavelle.

take care, Vian at the land of curry!

Had an awesome day though I thought it would turn out really dreadful. Screw self fulfilling prophecy, I know how to make my day awesome. Tutorial turned out to be really fun despite the absence of Grace, Jeremy and Alvin. I din't know what activated my hyper mode but I got so excited when I found out that the girl next to me shares the same name with me!

After classes, met up with daddy at Starbucks. But before that, I suddenly remembered that Help is having this Mid Autumn Festival Carnival, and within the first 5 minutes, I spent RM11 on this 2 items.

A pair of earring and a piece of paper.
haha.

I just have the tendency to buy things like that, wrappers, nice printed papers, but I'll never use them in a million years. Next time in my will, I'll make sure its passed down to a girl, a daughter (???) perhaps, and I'm going to make sure she likes to keep all this things as well. :D hehehe

Actually I really wanted to do a mini review on this something I recently purchased, but I fail to snap a clear picture of myself using that product,. I'm not sure but it seemed to me that its really popular among the LYN forumers, but I was pretty disappointed (yay I finally spell this word correctly without guessing -.- ) with the turn out.

Well yeap, its a hashmi kajal eyeliner. Its very charcoal-ish and though it gives you a really dark black shade but it smudges really easily. Prolly its function as a eyeshadow would be better, am not sure about that. I tried using a blending brush, the effect was pretty cool actually.

Alright, nothing much already. I shall blog again soon ;)

x
Jessica L.

Giveaways

2010-08-31T07:58:00.000-07:00

Another thing Lie To Me has made me become other than a life lie detector (HAHA), is a big fat lazy pig. Look at my blog! :(

Anyway, since life has been a lil bit boring, here's something to spice it up. Lets hope I'll get lucky in this ;) You fellow bloggers who are reading, do take part too! :)

OH TO BE A MUSE GIVEAWAY!
ends: 10th September 2010

MAQUILAGEM MASSTIGE GIVEAWAY
ends: 16th September 2010

KIMBERDOLL GIVEAWAY
ends: 20th September 2010

THE BEAUTY GAGA GIVEAWAY
ends: 8th September 2010

ALICE IN POLISHLAND GIVEAWAY
ends: 15th September 2010

oh, did I mention how much I love Tim Roth?! And his British accent, ohmy...

Love,
Jessica L.

That Saturday.

2010-08-28T06:53:00.000-07:00

The only thing I really want to blog about, is how happy I am, and have become, this 1month and 3 weeks.

Friday, Saturday, Sunday..........
lifegroup, pan mee, church, that simple!

On Monday,
I wish I have a time machine so I could go back to Friday, or even a week before to feel how much I was anticipating for last Saturday to happen. And because your face have been appearing in front of me for the past three days, waking up to a Monday morning knowing that I won't be seeing you for another 5 days was....... a lil saddening.

On Tuesday,
Memories still fresh! Things were going great but I was down with a fever and I guess my head was too heavy to fit you in. ;D But still, some minutes of the day was spent thinking about last Saturday, and simply.. you.

On Wednesday,
My very first day in Uni. It was orientation day and I was still coughing like a mad cow. Am terrible at trying to feel if I'm still having a fever so I couldn't be bothered and went ahead with the orientation. Wednesday was so much better! I probably only spent a minute thinking about you. A minute, haha!

On Thursday,
My fever was spiking high at 38.6 degrees so I guess that explains why you weren't really on my mind at all, those heat totally melted you away. Second day of orientation and I tell you, I totally dread group activities, I'm such an antisocial. Thank God I had a really good excuse, I took the whole 2 hours of 'meet the seniors' off and went to settle some of the PTPTN load issues.

Things got a lot worst after getting back from uni, finally decided to see the doctor, got tested and found that I was down with Influenza B, and had to do a self quarantine til Sunday.

On Friday,
Thank God for meds! I was feeling better already. Was really restless though so the whole day was spent sleeping. I had weird dreams, one of it had Lum Fung present, and another was a dream of me being given a task of counting M&Ms and just nice, in reality my dad walked into my room and ask if I was ok. I blurly woke up, still half stuck in dream land and my answer was :

"Counting M&Ms la... that chocolate ar!! You don't know meh?? Aiyo nvm la.... "

My dad was completely shocked I assumed and he just apologized, walk out of my room and I continued sleeping. When I woke up, my dad ask me:

"What are M&Ms ar, girl?"

On Saturday,
Oh man, you're back again. because I am supposed to see you today, but am home quarantined. Nuff said.

"Hey who you sitting with?
No one.
Kla I'll sit with you then"

God's deciding if we're gonna make it,
OR NOT.

Superwoman wheeee

2010-08-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

So I told myself : " Hey, time to use the shield to protect yourself, you're a rock on the outside but a tofu in the inside" , plus, predictions are NEVER accurate, like how my real results differed so much from my forecasted results, or should it be, the other way round?

University of Nottingham has rejected my application, and it'd be a lie if I were to say it doesn't bother me at all after Tila blurted out those words : I'm so sorry but your application has been rejected. Worst thing is, am sure my parents are really disappointed but seeing how much I cried over those split milk, they became the best comforters in the world. Their hugs is ten times better than those Taeyang would have given me when he sees me (HAHA! dreaming.....) , hey but its true!

Alright this is it. Nothing much to update, but soon maybe? ;)

Time to wake up S, no not Serena, but superwoman. :)

Bangkok, I LOVE!

2010-08-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but every time I go to Bangkok, a rush of different feelings fills me up. From really happy, to really moody and lonely, man, I'm one freaking complicated human being, who isn't that complicated if I don't think so much -.-

Anyway, I'm back from Bangkok. Shopping was awesome no doubt, I could live there forever and just shop for life :D

If you ever go to Thailand, places you have to visit includes :

1. Chatuchak Market (only on weekends!)

- Not for the 'princesses' or 'dai siu jehs' cause it'd be really hot, sweaty and forget all your glamorous make up please. Make sure to bring along your hotel name card where ever you go, especially Chatuchak because though its pretty similar to Petaling Street, its 100 times more complicated and larger than Petaling Street is, and with the language barrier, carrying your hotel name card with you makes things simple. :)

2. Platinum Fashion Mall

this is just 0.01% of the whole mall, k :D

Food court

- All ladies will LOVE this mall. Its a 6 story fashion mall, most of the shops are really small, thus the whole mall has thousands of boutiques, and the cheapest clothes you'll get is definitely at Platinum Fashion Mall. Bring along a friend, cause when you buy 2 piece or above, you'll get wholesale price. :) At the food court, you'll have to get this 'touch-n-go- like card from a counter and top up money to purchase your food, whatever balance you have will be refunded, so no worries :)

3. China Town

- You'll have to go there for the food of coruse. Though I believe any restaurant you try there will satisfy your hunger, this particular restaurant should not be missed!

T&K Seafood restaurant aka Green shirt
There's another restaurant right opposite this, R&K if I'm not mistaken, they're the red shirts :D

Ever shinny fried rice ;D

4. Sampeng market

- You can find almost anything here, from food to clothes to accessories to fruits, you name it. Its located around China Town, walking distance if you live around China Town.
5. Siam paragon / Mah Boon Krong (MBK) Mall

Okay, definitely a place for those 'princesses' and 'dai siu jehs'. You can find branded outlets here, but there's a specific place you should really visit.

- Take the BTS, board the Silom line track and you'll reach National Stadium Station, from here, there'll be overhead bridges linking the train station to the malls so before you rush into the mall, do a lil shopping at the overhead bridge itself, and you'll be amaze by the things you can find there.

Just the beginning....

Don't see see, buy buy!

You can see street dancers, too!

Hotels I recommend :

1. Miramar Hotel (Miramar website)

-If you're opting for something good yet cheap, Miramar would be a good choice. Recently refurbished as well. Walking distance to Sampeng and China Town. Approximately 1500 Baht a night.

2. iResidence boutique hotel (iResidence website)

-I've stayed there once in 2008. Gave me a really good impression because since its a boutique hotel, it feels a lot hommy-er. Its located around Sathorn. You'll feel like even the pool belongs to you. Am not sure about the room rates, but it's definitely pricier compared to Miramar.

Well, almost everywhere you go, its shopping time, and you don't have to worry that it'd burn a hole in your pocket, because you can get amazing clothes at RM15/Thai Baht 150 . Its pretty okay to take the taxi as well as your mode of transportation because unlike Malaysia, its strictly metered taxi.

Anyway, so far, this are the places I would recommend, especially if you're going there for shopping. If you're going there for other purposes such as visitation and you'll like to go to the traditional places, feel free to ask. Errrr.... leave me a message at my CBox? I'll be darn happy to help, cause Bangkok is like my 2nd home, (so much better than Malaysia! :S) and I even look Thai, those Thai people told me so. (Ok though it may not be that nice to look like Thai because they are viewed as.... prostitutes, gigolos and what nots? I personally think Thai girls are gorgeous, fashionable too!)

Till the next post!

x
Jessica L

562. Poco homemade

2010-08-03T06:16:00.000-07:00

Absolutely loving my dotted cotton blazer-like cardigan!

Finally successfully put on fake lashes, and doh~ it makes you look different :D LOL

Took a day leave from work and I feel like taking a month off, LOL. Today is specially dedicated to Lien Siaw, since this is her Princess Birthday Part 2. :)

Headed to Bangsar and started to serach around for this tiny winy restaurant - Poco homemade. Since I've eaten and was still really full, ordered a drink instead of a meal thus its not fair if I comment on their food. I tried their fries, its pretty delicious, but all fries are yummy to me. :D I think its a place for those who wants a chilly environment, and a place to really sit down and chit chat.

Cloth menu :)

Vintagee feeling

A very different 'styled' Chicken Katsu Don from the regular one I eat at Shiok Cafe. :D

Honeymilk

Handmade items, Kirei label

me and my bicycle of course :) :D

us, the happy girls :)

Ok, back to my normal rambling posts,

Believe it or not, life at KK Lim has improved. (Prolly I just need some time to fit in) The kakak sitting next to me is a fan of Ombak Rindu, a famous Malay language fiction, and that's the beginning of what I call it, a colleague-ship? LOL. Kak Yani finally gave me a really sincere smile, which is good of course.

But I wonder how true she could be sometimes, this Kak Yani, I've heard so much about them, being a skeptic make things worst, I can barely trust anyone there that most of the time our conversations are very random chat topics. But one thing that balanced out my skepticism and remove my worryness, this is how easy it is to trigger the happy nerves in me.

Siew Li's simple "Have you eaten?" , Uan Ru's "Wanna join us for lunch?" , Lili & Mei Yi's random chat topics and small conversations just make everyday at KK Lim more meaningful. Now that those kakak-s sitting around me starts to smile at me, life's good eh? :) But them smiling at me has its udang di seablik batu meaning sometimes, they'll just take advantage and ask me to help them out with their jobs. See how fake a working environment can be? Some acting skills are needed when you're out in the working world. ;D

Ok anyway, here's my pathetic computer and workspace at office, totally spoil this whole post of beautiful pictures. -.-

Whaaaaa? They still have this kind of computers? :S

Till the next post!

x
Jessica L.

561. Untitled

2010-07-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

Meh, I wanna have some break, I don't wanna work no more :(

Anyway, here's a lil update on what's up for the pass few days.

Grace's 19th Birthday, yes she finally laofung! LOL! Ruth came all the way from Subang via KTM, and before picking her up, I made a short trip to OU to do a COD. Very smart of me, I left my phone at home, having no phone to contact my customers for the COD, had to park my car, and look for a pay phone but it just made things worst when OU doesn't pay for the pay phone's line! So even when I put money in, no use. -.-

Had to use some random stranger's phone at the end and it was..... embarrassing! Another headache when I reached Kepong Central, without phone, how am I supposed to call Ruth?!

Brought Ruth to De Pastry Chef for dinner before heading to Tesco to surprise Grace at Subway (she's working there!)

Reading back my post on the Langkawi retreat with Grace and Ruth, I really missed it. Despite the not so adventurous stuff we did, I can't say that it was a boring trip. IT WAS AWESOME! The time spent was all that really mattered.

Thing's I'm stucked doing :

1. CLEO MAGAZINE
My magazine reading habit has finally come back! I just have this freaking bad habit of buying Cleo and because of the really hectic A levels exam preparations for the pass few months, I've lost my magazine reading mood but I still purchase it, as it is a habit to buy it every month. I've purchased up to June's issue, but actually, I was still stucked in April's issue! Since I have one hour break at work everyday, that'd be my magazine reading time.

2. 法证先锋II
Thanks to Ruth for introducing, and of course Vee Vian for being my walking Baidu! Lol. This show gives me a feeling like I've already watched it, but I just can't seem to remember anything -.-

3. Death Dance by Linda Fairstein
A crime and investigation fiction but a really slow paced one. I think no one beats Sidney Sheldon though I've only read 2 of his fictions.

Ahh time pass faster please! I can't wait till 16th of August arrives.

Till the next post,
Jessica L.

560. Work, dramas, work, dramas

2010-07-19T09:47:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how many things floods through my mind during work, prolly because the things I do is really boring that I have to think of things to keep myself entertained, and actually... no one talks to me. Except for Lili, and another Chinese girl, who sits a distance away from me.

Things I've learn so far :

1. Type Judgement Debtor Summons (JDS)
2. Do Statement of Accounts (SOA)
3. Type Afidavits
4. Home cooked food is the best
5. Working is not easy
6. INDEPENDENCE
7. You'll have best friends in high school, you'll make friends you can never lose in college, but you may not even have acquaintances in your office!

Its my 8th day at work, longer than I lasted at BBQ Chicken. :D

Mum brought me lunch a few days back, and I actually felt really touch that I had to tilt my head upwards to stop my tears from flowing. I know, weird! Hmmm...

Funny scenes @ work :

1. I didn't know that you can photocopy a stack of documents at a time with those huge big scale photocopy machine. So I started putting one piece at a time and imagine, I have a whole pile to photocopy. I'm so smart right! Until this chinese girl came and tell me that I could photocopy a whole stack at a time..... I wasted so much time.

2. I'm not exactly a pro at Microsoft Excel. Wanted to know if I can just copy and past part of the table into a Words document, and Lili thought I was asking her how to copy and paste! I kept quiet and let her teach me, and she asked me to do it once to let her see. -.- And yes, I did it just to show her I've learn how to do it. ;D

3. I was really really sleepy and to entertain myself, while waiting for the photocopy machine, from the computer's control area, I typed 1000 at the printing copies section and when the photocopy machine started printing, I freaked out! Thank God it jammed half way and I've printed half a rim of the same document. If not, a thousand copies? Nevermind, it will be recorded into Lili's amount of printings. :D (Each have a password when photocopying/printing, I use Lili's)

4. I found myself a new hobby! Refilling papers into the photocopy machine! :D

5. A pregnant woman sitting opposite my desk, having a Justin Bieber's Baby as her ringing tone. -.- and her phone rings NON STOP!

6. I 'lost' 3 files, thank God someone found it! :S

7. I type lots of addresses and names, the funniest of all : Pulau Bum Bum which is in Sabah, and one has an alias of the name Roben Hood. -.-

Despite experiencing funny moments, working is actually pretty damn stressful. Nowonder they say, studying life is always the best.

I learn new things everyday, and its like I'm expected to be good at it right away if not I feel I'll only add workload for Lili because she has to do it all over again if I make any mistakes. Thus this time, I make sure I do it well, and it has to be perfect within a few tries. So hell it was stressful especially when it comes to statement of accounts, it scared the shit out of me, and this made me realize, whatever I'm going to do in the future, Math plays an important role. No matter what, where and when.

This morning on the way to work, daddy told me :
" Just treat this as an experience, a learning process, don't need to stress yourself. "

Referring to point number 7 in the list of things I've learn, seriously I have no one to talk at work. The only empty table there is where the a group of M***ys sits, I'm not racist, I think their the ones who are racist. Though today was actually pretty awesome, Uan Ru is pretty talkative (in a good way!) if you actually talk to her :)

Random pictures from my phone :

Snack drawer at office

Pile of things I need to type, photocopy and sort out

Photobooth print out. Taken at Hartamas Shopping Mall

Skyping with the three awesome people from college, Ruth, Grace and Floyd

Meet my driver - Grace :) Sorry she busy cannot look at the cam :D
She loves plants so much that she has to plant them even in her car. ;)

Oh by the way, I've finished Gong Sam Gai, here's my favourite screenshot :

Yeung Yi looks so gorgeous, even when she's pissed. :D Much thanks to Vee Vian for the dramas! :)

Alright, that's all for this post. ;) Will update... soon?

x
Jessica L.

The way I feel

2010-07-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid, and I'm worried. How and why? I don't understand. Rejecting what I truly feel will be the best way to protect myself.

I hate this feeling. I rather not feel this at all....... really.

558. A brand new chapter

2010-07-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

I really wanna blog, but I'm really addicted to a TVB drama series and its taking up most of my time, other than work :

Though most of the time I don't understand the cantonese they use, and as my Mandarin becomes 'better with time'...... Its still really addictive, this kinda series makes you wanna watch till the end no matter what.

And YES! I also got myself a job. Am working with KK Lim Associates. Much thanks to Aunty Jess for giving a chance because base on the period of time I'm going to be with them, no companies would actually hire me.

First day was a real shocker for me because I start to realize how dumb I am. I didn't know how to operate a photocopy machine correctly, I tried to organize the documents into a file and I think I did it wrongly, and Lily thinks that I don't know how to do a copy & paste from Microsoft Excel to Microsoft Words. -.-

I also didn't know that working in an office can be so tiring. After one day of work, ONE DAY, I woke up the next day half asleep. I've never been so tired in my whole life!

Second day was spend typing letters, I've been doing a lot of those bankruptcy thingys actually, and tomorrow, I'll have to continue typing the whole pile of JDS-es.

But one thing I actually enjoy is actually having nothing to worry about after coming back from work. Of course it'd be different if I'm a big boss, but being the 'do-everything-and-anything-girl' basically just finishes her job, and leaves sharp at 6pm. ;) (Hey, that's cause my dad has to pick my sister who's school ends at 6.25pm ok.) I stayed till around 7.30pm though on the first day because it was raining heavily. -.- (Boss, pay OT please! :D)

Anyway, there's something really important to be updated before I forget, so here :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIEN SIAW!

Celebration part 1 aka the pre-birthday was at The Apartment, Curve.

and yes, we went round Ikea taking pictures again of course! ;) ;D

Am waiting for Celebration Part 2! ;) Till then, I shall continue with my show. :)

x
Jessica L.

557. El Sanctuary.

2010-07-11T06:26:00.000-07:00

Aww man! I just remembered Taeyang had a new MV for I Need A Girl and I'm so going to drool over him again. Pft! & he shaved! :)

Am back from Malacca, and it was awesome

The time spent with different people this time, made it awesome. Being me, I always stick to the people I know, things are done a lil differently this trip, and I'm amazed by how many people I could get to know just by stepping out of my comfort zone. And boy, I was glad I made it for the camp!

Girls stayed at the chalet and poor boys, they had to squeeze in a 22 person 'human store' - dormitory.

Girls chalet:

(this is not my chalet, but all chalets look like that, pictures credited to Alison Cheong, & CAM)

Thank God for the big blue sky and wonderful weather!

awesome roomies aka Tam Tam mates

The committee.

Campfire

Mother nature.

Simple yet scrumptious meals.

I think I was the only one who skipped the Night walk, cause honestly, after MCKL's camp, I told myself that I'll never go jungle trekking anymore, AT NIGHT especially. I admit I am not brave at all when it comes to all these adventure thingy. -.-

We had some activities before the night walk, being part of the committee certainly has its priviledges, but definitely not sitting under the hot sun selling 'tips' and trying out some of the most bizarre punishments before its actually used during the games. LOL.

Played 'Sign' with the people there till 1 in the morning for the first night, had no energy left to continue, so headed back to our chalets and knocked out almost immediately.

Continued the second session of 'Sign' the next day before heading back to KL.

I shall end my post with this:

I'm smelly, but I'm always happy! :)

x
Jessica L.

556. Funny men

2010-07-08T20:57:00.001-07:00

A very quick post just before I leave for Malacca for another trip, church camp this time.

Yesterday was spent with Grace & Ruth. Headed off to Pavillion after getting my forecast results from college, and went for a 12.30pm movie : Eclipse

It isn't boring, but it was hilarious and I feel if adults were to watch it, they'll prolly laugh their heads off!

Anyway, what I really wanted to blog about is this :

Location: Hot&Roll KL Central

Guy 1: with white hair
Guy 2: opposite guy 1
Guy 3: the only chinese

Guy 2 speaks most of the time. Really really loudly. I've been eavesdropping the whole time when I was there just because I can't control my ear to listen or not to listen and he was talking really loudly. I suspect that Guy 1 is the rich one there, or prolly the customer of Guy 2. I'm not sure about Guy 3 cause he didn't utter a word the whole time all he did was just laugh smile laugh smile.

The funniest thing that happened was when their food arrived. Guy 1 and Guy 2 hurriedly stood up and try to take their wallets to pay for the food. The usual scene, both will try to push each other's money away and try to pay. Amazingly, Guy 3 just sat there, blurly, and when he realized he's the only one sitting down, he stood up slowly and tried to reach for his wallet in an uber fake manner!

I LOL-ED
:) -.-

Also, I spent at least 3 hours trying to make this really simple looking video. It is our first video, and the first video I ever edited and I din't know that video editing is so tiring! Well.. enjoy!

x
Jessica L.

555. Picnics and beaches

2010-07-05T07:22:00.000-07:00

I'm finally done with A Levels, and its the season to grow fat now! :D Sorry for the very lack of updates, and this will be a very long post!

28th June 2010
Missy XS & Lienns awesome picnic

Before Psychology 4, my very last paper on the 30th of June, I attended Missy XS & Lienn's awesome picnic. The weather was alright at first, but there were signs that it will be raining really soon.

Had to leave early since it was Eryn's birthday, missed out Mr Ken's guitar playing session.

2nd-4th July 2010
Langkawi retreat

Right after our last paper, Grace, Ruth and myself took a midnight bus on the 1st of July and headed to Langkawi. We were supposed to go to Redang, but since daddy has a complimentary stay at Meritus Pelangi Resort, we went to Langkawi instead.

The resort's really nice, but if you're looking for adventure, Langkawi is not the place for you. Unless you find a swollen hand resulting from an insect bite adventurous, you can try going to Langkawi. LOL

Location 1: Breakfast Bar, Pantai Chenang

I can't deny that the food there is really good though we did not try any seafood since we were all haters of seafood. We went to this really random place for branch, and the Tomyam there was awesomeeeeeeeee!

Location 2: Town, Kuah

Took a taxi after branch from Pantai Chenang and went off to the town. One very funny thing is that they are actually really proud of their McDonalds, and their largest shopping mall is prolly like the smallest minimarket in KL. Ok maybe not that bad, but its just not as big as we expected.

Beer is really cheap, so is their chocolate. Couldn't resist and I bought myself a bar of Ritter Sport. The things we bought includes 3 tin of Heineken, 3 different card game : Old Maid, Happy Family and Snap, Cream crackers, Maggi Cup and Milo. We had Cream crakers and made hot milo for our dinner on the first night since it was raining pretty heavily outside.

Location 3 : Hospital Langkawi

Yes I went to the hospital to get my hand checked up. I got bitten and my hand was really swollen. It was my very first time in a government hospital, so all I spent was RM1. The funniest thing happened when I was collecting my medication. They gave me loads of anitbiotics and when I saw it, I accidently said 'what the hell' in front of the nurse, she was stunned. I felt really really bad.

Location 4 : Artisans Pizza

Lunch was at Artisans, also along Pantai Chenang, and the pizza is a thousand times better than pizza hut! The 4 cheese is definitely a must try if you ever visit Langkawi.

It started to rain once again, so we had to head back to our rooms. Spend some time at the lobby and had their complimentary drinks while playing scrabble.

Location 5 : Thai Spa

The only luxury thing we spent on there was this spa session. Not that we were on a really tight budget, but we tried to save as much as possible.

Its really hard to post all the pictures here, but overall, we had an awesome time. The last night was the bomb. The fun we had wearing the hotel bathrobe and doing all the silly posses, I miss it already!

Oh well, another chapter of my life is closed now. Waiting for the next chapter to open. I feel really excited, but at the same time, there's always a wind of fear blowing at random. I guess I really have to trust the Lord on where he's really sending me next. Though its pretty confirmed that I'll be heading to Help to pursue a degree in Psychology.

To those who are also waiting to know where to head next, I wish you all the best! At the meantime, have fun yo babeh!

x
Jessica L.

The maximum

2010-06-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

I don't think I've been as hardworking as I was today. I've pushed myself beyond my maximum and I so deserve a break that's why I'm here now ;D Why must they put Economics and Biology on the same day? Pft.

Yesterday's Skype session with Ruth was the funniest among all the Skype sessions we had. Most of the time, I'll be the one teasing her with all her pass experiences, and finally, I shared with her something that she could actually use to tease me.

Also, rather than watching football at home, I watch Ruth watch it at Old Town Kopitiam through Skype instead. And her facial expression is like the scoreboard it tells you what is going in the game.

Anyway, I can switch off my nerd mode very very soon. :) Tonnes of things planned out (in my head) and I'm going to catch up with all the moviessssssssssssssss!

Before I go off,

Some random pictures :

Taeyang on the left! :)

Lien Siaw did this for me :

x
Jessica L.

Taeyang!

2010-06-17T09:12:00.001-07:00

;) Ohmytaeyang!

Another update won't kill I guess, so here goes.
(Though I actually wonder how many readers I have -.-)

11th-13th June 2010
I was at Penang, yes i the middle of my supposedly very important finals but since my dad really did his best to convince me to go, I packed my stuff, and off I went to Penang.

Some not so nice memories were 'triggered' from this trip, I mean those are nice memories, not nice in a sense that those memories are supposed to just fade, as if I’ve drank a whole bowl of memory erasing magic portion.

The highlight of this trip is definitely the dinner at Hard Rock. Not that it was uber amazing, just that I go to Penang once every year, there's nothing much to do/see there though I wouldn't mind living there because its actually as busy as a city.

The price of their beer/liquor whatsoever drinks are seriously overpriced. Sorry, maybe its because I don't know how to enjoy such drinks. The food was good, but I wasn't amazed cause they should have a standard to achieve in order to be famous no? Thus it was pretty much 'predictable'.

I absofreakinglutely love the three shots below.

I was Skype-ing with Ruth the first night I was there. Its just a habit now to Skype each other, if not it feels like there is something terribly different. Even when we have nothing to say to each other, we'll still Skype. Lol, ask Ruth!

Durian feast on the second day, and we had to go 'mountain climbing' before we got to eat our Durians. Ah.. not elaborating, it was just terrible cause I had to do it wearing a skirt, I wasn't told about the agenda of the day, so yeah.

Before heading back to KL, dropped by at Ipoh. Walked around Ipoh parade and I was one happy girl when I found that the FOS outlet there still have that plain coloured tee shirt I absolutely adore! It was also on a 50% off so it only cost me RM7.50! Dinner was at this famous 'ngachoikai' restaurant, and the ngachois are seriously my worst nightmare. My mum insisted that we eat there, but after the meal, this was what she said :

Mum : Eeee, the chicken no taste hor? Next time don't want to eat here already.
Dad : Do you know this is the exact same thing you told me when we ate here the last time?

My dad should have mention that earlier! Lol I guess he forgot and he could only recall when we were at that restaurant, context dependent memory eh? ;)

16-18th June 2010
Grace spent a night here last Wednesday after our Biology 2 paper. Taking Biology is already the worst mistake I've made, retaking unit 2 was worst. Anyhow, I've resit it and I won't say that I did my best because there was some other papers I was concentrating on, which I feel that the chance of me scoring a better grade would be higher.

Grace had many 'wonderful' experiences while hanging around BSD. After dinner, she knocked into someone's car while reversing, and she also got a parking ticket that cost RM100 because we totally forgot that we have to pay the parking! Pft. Dad was nice enough to settle the bill for us, and it went down RM30 instead of RM100.

I finally pay the gym a visit after a few weeks of lazing around at home with all the unhealthy food I've fed my body with. Running on the treadmill feels really really good.

Alright, I should go.

x
Jessica L.

552. Bronzy Audrey

2010-06-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

Finally got to try on a bronze brown shade on myself. Again, I tried it on a Sunday after church, because I put on really basic make up to church, only eyeliner on eyes, but I still have to wash it out anyway. So might as well try on something before I clean up.

Tools I used today :

A little more than usual, used foundation and a little bit of concealer because I needed to be on stage today as I was on duty for tambourine. Am currently having some pimples on my cheeks due the staying up, and exam stress. (Ahem!) That explains the use of concealer ;)

1. The Face Shop mousse fonudation
2. ELF foundation brush
3.Silky girl precision liquid eyeliner
4. Some random 8 colour eyeshadow palette
5. Shiseido eyebrow palette
6. Benefit Blusher - Dandelion
7. Maybelline concealer pencil
8. Maybelline auto eyeliner

If you're wondering why I have to use to types of eyeliner, its because I use the pencil one first as an outline, before applying the liquid one.

The look :

Very simple, yet classic. Its also quick, plus when you don't really have the skill, you tend to just blend it however you like and then bim bam boom, you have your eye make up done.

Oh have I told you how much I love my Audrey Hepburn printed tank?! Another thrifted piece from an online blogshop.

Dorene and I, craved for nasi lemak at the same time. Lol

x
Jessica L

551. Tee hee, my new favourite word

2010-06-04T09:45:00.000-07:00

They got together, then they break up in the middle. Realizing they still need each other, they make up.

They get married, made their vows, promise to love each other through thick and thin, but then after that something goes wrong, and they realize that there are not meant to be together, they get a divorce.

Growing up from a loving family myself, I feel really blessed that my parents not only love their child, but they love each other through the years they have been married.

But while growing up, we go through life ourselves. We would first have puppy love here and there, then we realize what true love is really all about, everything changes. Then, its not enough, we see divorces happening, even when it doesn't occur within my family, and only one uncle who went through a divorce, hearing stories, going through break ups and hurt myself has made an impact.

I wonder where love has gone to, sometimes I no longer even want to seek love, having fun with friends, and random companionship would be sufficient. Don't get me wrong, its all good clean fun.

I'm one who thinks and worry too much. But can someone tell me where the love has gone to, ans prove to me if you think its still around? I mean, see how manipulative people are nowadays, ask me to go through hurt once again, and those horror emotional roller coasters rides, thanks but no thanks, I've had enough.

I just don't know how to trust anymore. I'm brain washing myself myself sometimes. Thinking to myself, 'hell no there is no true love no more, they are all around to use you, then leave you hurting'.

No I'm not emo-ing. Just thinking. :) And those are my the things I think about other than my studies and my future. My future as in, what to study, where to study that sort of future. Not building a family sort of future.

The only people I can trust other than God almighty, my family.

Oh, of course, Grace and Ruth. I cannot express how thankful that God has placed them in my life. I've said that many times I'm sure. Its just a blessing that I have to claim, again and again, so that they'll know how much they mean to me.

Prolly one day, I'll find my way back into love. For now, no strength. My love is only for nasi lemak :)

Teehee. Bahaha.

x
Jessica L.

p/s: To those who can't stop stalking Jay Sean, please, give him a rest. -.- Or give you fingers some rest and stop tweeting so much. Go read the newspaper!

550. Happy birthday momma!

2010-06-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

Metro Tabernacle was officially dedicated unto the Lord on the 30th of May. Seeing how it grew from being a small group of people with one young energetic pastor, and today leading one of the fastest growing churches in Malaysia, I am truly proud to be part of Metro Tabernacle for the pass 19 years of my life.

I'm glad to have a humble pastor, who knows to set the church's priorities right, and not to be led by his own fame, but to do all for the glory of God's name.

I regretted not taking part in any of the performance because I was really lazy. A levels (ok I blame A levels) is sucking all my energy, and most of the time when daddy try to drag me out to OU for a movie, I can't even be bothered by that, I was freaking lazy. Just want to stay home. Stare at two things.

1.Laptop
2.Books. (yeah right!)

Anyway, the pictures below belongs to Audrey. All credits to her! :)

Daddy and mummy went off to Bangkok without me once again, and I'm left all alone at home becoming the kakak of the day :( But its alright, I find staying at home taking care of my sister and brother, it made me think a lot, in a good way of course, and to see how much my parents have suffered to care for their three monkeys. Sometimes I wish Andre could see more of what I see, and helped out a little more, rather than living in his own world. But mehh, its alright I guess, time will come and he will soon realize his duties.

Also, for you people who know about the 'Too Busy For Money" business I've started, its been pretty awesome. Really thankful for the few who trust us and started to use our service, and just to let you know, sometimes I have to sacrifice advertising my own blog, just so your advert will remain on the top to grab the attention.

Its going slow honestly. I think there are a lot more things I need to learn, oh well, I need to take one step at a time. (Ahem, I usually take 10 step at a time, like I'm about to force SG to hand me her closed down blog! Grrrrrr)

More people have started to ask about this service, and I find it funny when people don't know what a c-box is. Haha! Ok I'm mean, but I still gladly reply their messages really politely and I try to sound as professional as I can. Minus the 'LOL' 'Haha' ':)'

My goal would be that it would be known internationally. Oh well, Until then, I'll work my ass off to popularize and stabilize it, get a wider base of readers. And, people, do give me feedbacks please. Leave me a note or you could email them to me at yuelin22@hotmail.com Oh well, that's if this blog has any readers at all. -.- LOL

Before I crap further,

Back to the lame books! :(

p/s: Happy birthday mum! Your brand spanking new laptop is waiting for you at home, I can't wait to teach you how to use your Facebook account so that you can stalk me and check on me (NOT)! :D Love you <3

549. All the way

2010-05-25T08:36:00.001-07:00

When I don't get enough sleep, this is what happens. I will have a super bitter looking face, not that I don't have a bitter looking face naturally, but when I don't have enough sleep, the 'bitterness' increases.

And then, some stupid buyer from the LYN, thinks I'm one dumb seller, created 2 accounts just to test whether I'll reserve the items for her or not. And the dumbest thing of all, she reply my messages using the opposite accounts.

She has reached my maximum level of tahaning lame customers like that. -.- and yes I'm lack of sleep. And needs to readjust my timing and schedule really badly. My day has become night, and night became day.

So many events coming up but what has to remain at the top of all those interesting events, is my stupid A levels exam. I can't wait for it to be done, and there's so many things I want to do after.

I'm a lil active now on twitter, rather than the usual lame emo tweets, I start stalking around (oops!) I should say, looking around, and have been stalking Jay Sean and his fans as well. Just to get a glimpse of how crazy they can get.

Aww, I get a shout out life on TV! ;)
Isn't he sweet?!

Jay Sean is really nice and sweet though. He'd follow those fans on Twitter, and deep down in my heart I actually wished he would follow me. but mehh, my skin isn't thick enough to go tweet him and stalk him the way his other fans does. I'm not exactly a huge fan or what, just think that he has a pretty unique voice, and looks pretty damn hot. ;) Very my kind of guy, ahem! ;D (tall dark handsome) LOL!

Honestly, I pity him. All the girls are spamming his twitter like crazy, I think he should just get married (to me perhaps) and then, those girls will probably stop spamming so much.

Okay, I'm just kidding. To those girls out there, don't kill me! ;) I'm on a 'sugar' rush. No sugar, but still a lil hyper ;D

x
Jessica L.

548.Experiment 2

2010-05-23T03:55:00.000-07:00

Whee! Another quick update again. ;D

After church, I decided to play with my make up again and today, I tried out a really sweet mixture of colours plum, purple and to darken it so I won't look like I just got punched in the eye with the light purple I use, dark gray was my third choice of color.

The outcome:

Again, no foundation, concealer, blusher and mascara.

One trick I use to make my eye look bigger, is to apply liquid eyeliner after blending in the colors. Honestly, I don't know whether it is right to do that or not, but I just feel that it doesn't make my make up look aunty-ish. Unless your colors are dark enough or you have big enough eyes, you could skip that eye liner step.

I've run out of colors to try for now. I've only got blue, which I've already tried for OB, and the very common grey smokey eye, and today, shimmering plum purple. Honestly, I still don't know where to use these looks to, I still prefer my signature look :

Black liquid eyeliner. :) Simple. The latest addition to my family of accessories, my gangsta gold chain. Purchased from an online thrift store. Cost me RM20 inclusive of postage. Wasn't supposed to use this not so nice picture of me, but I accidently deleted the one I wanted to use. So too bad.

Alright, signing off with my very lanci look, peace out ya'll. (I'm using peace out ya'll cause it just suits the picture below, goodbye doesn't seem to sound right ;D )

x
Jessica L.

547. Learning something different

2010-05-18T23:01:00.000-07:00

Really hate downloading PDF files, it loads freaking slow. Extreme Papers is better than Free Exam Paper. At least PDF files load faster at Extreme Papers.

My mood can't stop swinging. For a moment, I'm like on a sugar rush, and the next, totally opposite. Wonder when will it be stable? Pft.

Biology 6 was alright, thank God. Imagine how bad it'd ruin my mood when my first paper already killed me.

My latest obsession : MAKE UP BRUSHES

MAC Kabuki brush

I've been searching all over Low Yat Net for some brushes, but the price is way over my budget. Purchased some, though its not like I'm working that I need to put on make up everyday. Kabuki brushes are the cutest among all. And I'm especially in love with blending brushes and angled brushes. So awesome.

I've yet to try on different types of make ups. So far, my signature look is always black eyeliner and mascara, other than that, I've not found the confidence to wear it out yet. Though, I've tried out this look a few weeks ago. I always find myself looking even older after doing the smokey eye make up. I've experimented a few times, and finally I found a way to make it look a lil youthful on me - by applying blue eyeliner on the inner corner of the bottom eyelid. Applying it full on the bottom eyelid will make me look like a vampire because smokey eyes is really eye popping enough, thus a lil shade of blue in at the corner will do.

Please do not laugh if its ugly, because it is my very first successful trial after trying quite a few times. Of course, I skip the foundation, concealer, blusher, lip gloss and mascara. It was just for fun anyway ;) My lip looks really pale here. But since the eye is the center of the focus, lips shall remind this way, gloss would be a lil too much, prolly a nude shade of lipstick. ;)

Next I would definitely like to try purple shades. I've seen many tutorials doing purple eye make up and it looked gorgeous on them. Well, wait till I go purchase some purple colored pigments and eye shadows :)

Alright so now you know what I've been up to when I'm not studying ;) I'm going off.

x
Jessica L.

546. Quick one

2010-05-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

Just a quick update on what I've been doing for the pass few days, other than studying.

Lunch at Boston, Solaris, with Grace on the 14th of May, Friday

Their cheese baked rice is awesome :)

Random photos from my phone :

Grace loves English Lit so much that she even dressed up like her English Lit lecturer.

Eryn broke my ruler into three pieces one shot. -.-

Hey, that's me! :)

Okay, lame I know.

I shall go off now. Got a date with Ruth on skype, to study together :)

x
Jessica L.

545. Movie addict

2010-05-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

If there's one thing you must know, I keep you in my prayer everyday. I really don't know what went wrong and what has been bothering you, but I sense that you have some problems, I mean yes who does not have problems, but, hmmm... I don't know how to explain, see, you just have to know that, I keep you in my prayers daily. For Him to show you the direction of your life, guide you in your daily decisions. I'm sure you're gonna take me the wrong way if I were to text you or message you. Again, I can be a good listener if you allow me to be one.

7th May 2010, Friday

Every student, will end up missing their college days, and the college itself, no matter how much they initially complain about. Like how ugly the college is, how much noise the construction site is making, and how sucky the canteen food is.

Today, the 7th of May, all classes for 0901 Alpha has officially ended. The day we all sit at the usual hangout spot for the very last time, but this time, instead of complaining about the canteen food, we'll be saying how much we'll miss the college, and how we wish we had another 1 or 2 more weeks to spend with each other.

Though we have our nicer canteen next to this old canteen, this small canteen is still our favorite hang out space, because of the memories and the time spent here during our first and second semester.

After college, went over to Hang Tuah to help mum deliver some items, and then to Times Square to meet up with the girls for lunch and movie with Grace. Watched The Crazies, not as bad as I thought, still scary, but not too bad. ;)

For the rest of the pictures, you can view it here : PHOTOS

8th May 2010, Saturday

Motivated to study, and did a set of Biology paper 6 before heading to OU for a movie with Eric. Iron Man 2 this time, and it is not as bad as what Ruth told me. I actually enjoyed the movie. Plus, Tony Stark is so leng chai :) I'm actually gonna hunt for Iron Man 1 and watch when I'm free. Ruth, really not that bad la the movie.

Alright, I'm going off to bed. Hope I don't look like a zombie on stage tomorrow. On duty for tambourine at church.

x
Jessica L.

544. The things I miss

2010-05-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

I'm missing so many things. College, the girls, Dubai, and that night Isis, Adrian and I spent in the bar at Jordan. Freaking awesome moments.

Its the 2nd day. Though its really tough, knowing what you're up to has been my concern for the pass one two weeks. But I've put a full stop to that. I'm going full blast on stopping all this internet nonsense too. I've pretty much remove all those nonsensical applications, ignore random messages, plus, I did say, and it was a promise, to you, that I should never do all these nonsense anymore, and you were the last. Thus, I am keeping that promise, since I've pretty much broke the others, no? -.-

I still think of you though.

I don't even go on twitter right now, till I can really get over the whole thing, get you off my mind completely. But the amazing thing is, even when I see your URL, or even when it accidently pops up when I type that frigging letter, I can resist not clicking it.

Oh crap, after this blog post, everyone is going to privatize their information, blogs, twitter, etc etc from me.

I've been looking around LYN forum, and one of the topic grabbed my attention. It's about slimming products and what nots. I when and took a look, pretty awesome ok, I read the customer feed backs, about how they manage to slim their thighs and all, made me wanna purchase it. -.- But then, I manage to convince myself that I don't need it. I'm slim, beautiful and gorgeous enough. ;) wink wink

Talkinga bout slimming and being thin, going to the gym has been part of my routine now, and I'm feeling pretty excited every time I get on to that treadmill. I've never been a sport lover, going to the gym is the only way to keep myself healthy.

I think in one of the blog post, I mentioned how America's Next Top Model makes me feel so bad every single time I watch it, and how The Biggest Loser actually makes me feel good? LOL. Now even The Biggest Loser makes me feel pretty bad too. Especially the finale. -.- But one thing that really motivates me to keep myself healthy, is when I see how those contestants with diabetes and other sicknesses and diseases manage to conquer it all, and give all those crappy diseases a kick out of their body.

Most of us skipped college today. I wanted to go, but Floyd, my only Economics partner is going missing, too. Thus, I decided to sleep in. Woke up pretty early because I was so motivated to go collect my shoes from PosLaju, loving it!

Though I'm a big spender, the times that I actually spent more than RM50 for a single item can be counted with my fingers, and probably use some toes too. To date, the most expensive thing I bought myself, is my 5 inch Eclipse heel, made me RM189 poorer. Of course I do own quite a few more-than-RM50 items such as my laptop, mobile, and iPod, but it is all purchased by my wonderful dadda. Of course mummy does spend a lot on me as well, like... ahh! My Massimo Dutti handbag! And she pays for all the clothes I choose from the wholesaler where she gets her clothes for her boutique from, though it'd be after some lectures entitled :

How many shirts and clothes you have already in your closet? Still can fit in?

Well, my point is, I'm pretty thrifty one la actually. ;) hehehehehe. Well, I should be, right. I'm only a student, and I don't earn truckload of cash, YET. I earn, some now other than my allowance. :) I do spend on myself, just that I don't see why I should get myself a branded clothes that'd cost me a bomb, and how many times can I wear that same piece again and again?

Alright, I'm like having a debate with myself. -.-

Nothing On You by B.O.B is currently stuck on my head, and I keep it on a repeat mode on my iTunes. Can't agree more, that Bruno Mars does have a really nice voice.

but i was wondering if there was something that you wanna know
but never mind that we should let it go
cos we don't wanna be a t.v episode
and all the bad thoughts just let them go

x
Jessica L.

543. Suit up day.

2010-05-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

Time to say goodbye...

Ish, I needa try to complete this blog post as soon as possible, because my laptop cooler is ruined, and my laptop is heating up really fast, like its on a burning stove!

Today is the so called 'last day' of class, though we still have classes on Thursday and Friday but only for half a day. Sheng Feng, if I'm not mistaken, decided to 'make and event' on Facebook, and made today : SUIT UP DAY.

I was darn excited! Because I have no chance to wear my blazer, and wooot! Finally an occasion to wear it! ;)

I don't think the picture of the whole 0901 is posted up on Facebook yet, and this are the few pictures taken, of us the Biology peeps, a small and really close bunch of us. :)

Me and Soon Wei decided to start a business of our own, with our company name :

eeerrr, better not say :)

This is us, discussing about the business, and product we will be selling.

5 minutes of discussing...

Soon Wei : Heheheh, I can't wait to make loads of moneyyyy!
Jessica : PLEASE! Be serious!

Soon Wei : Okok, DEAL!

Jessica : DEAL!

:):)

When Soon Wei is suppose to be sitting down in the meeting room, discussing about the business, products and services, he went out partaying with other.... guys. And got caught by Miss CEO, Jessica.

Ok, lame I know. Anyway this are the other shots of the day. :)

Saveen and Sze Ling at the back ;)

Part of the dudes in 0901 suiting up. ;)

Went to Times Square after class with Ruth, we were happily chatting on the train that we missed our station, and had to run, when we were all dressed up in skirts and heels. Supposed to get Baskins, but then I wanted something heavier before that, went to Vivo but was too full already for Baskins already.

One and a half years of A levels, and everything will come to an end, after our final battle that begins on the 18th of May. Indeed, I am really blessed that God actually placed me in MCKL, if not I could be a party girl if I end up in colleges like : err no college should be mentioned here. Alright I don't wanna start again with all the mushy things, but here's a shout out to the people I really wanna thank, people who I worked with, studied with, cheered with, and of course my lecturers.

1. Grace, Ruth, Ashwinie, Gayathri, this are the four people that will never ever escape my A list!
2. Floyd! Without you, I don't know how to survive Economics. Thanks for being such a good friend, and now you'll never get to poke my waist or punch my arms anymore!
3. Deirdre, Soon Wei, Su Li, Ravi, Siva who brings plenty of laughter! Please, keep in touch alright! ;)
4. Saveen, I really hated you at first, honestly, for saying so many F words when we first talked to each other and discussing about the Moral group project. But after I got habituated, I actually find it cute whenever you say that word. HAHA.
5. Sze Ling, I really enjoyed all the whispering we do behind, especially during the 5 minutes Biology break!
6. Miss Angeline & Mr Loo, you both are the awesomest lecturer we could ever have! The bond between the Alpha 0901 with both of you is just, awesome!

SHIT. I already miss the those time where we chill in the canteen, complaining how expensive and unedible the canteen food is. Sighhhh.

Honestly, I don't know how I'll feel, going to another college/university. I feel pretty attached to MCKL, to the people I meet there. Adjusting, finding new friends aint that easy. I always thought I'm really friendly, bubbly, etc, not till my life in MCKL started, people tell me how bossy I look, till they talk to me, and find that there's this really crazy part of me buried deep down inside only a few will get to see. And I'm pretty damn anti social, I'm only with that few people, and see me on Thursday, I'll be hiding in a 2.3 while waiting for Econs to start, unless there's plans made with Floyd. Breakfast tomorrow, Floyd? ;)

Approximately one year ago, I kissed high school goodbye, after one and a half year of getting to know some really good people, its time to wave our hands and say goodbye once again. How many goodbyes do we have to say in life?

Alright, time for me to go off. My favourite shots of the day :

Credits to Ruth Liew

Credits to Deirdre.

x
Jessica L.

542. Big days.

2010-05-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

29th April 2010, Thursday
or is it 31st of April? I wonder. (inside joke)

Ruth is officially 18+1, that means, she officially is starting to 'lao fung' and has reached her expiry date.

LOL! Kidding! I'm so mean, her heart is probably breaking now, or maybe, she's just 'habituated' to my mean-ess, and lame-ness.

On her birthday itself, I feel so so privileged to be able to celebrate her big day, with her. :) That just means, I'm one of the VIP-s in her life. ;)

After classes ended, headed to Reggae's to parrrrrrrtay. Ok no party la, its a quiet and nice celebration, we chilled, eat, snap pictures and then to our horror, a baby cockroach crawl out from the side of the photo frame hung on the wall which was right next to our table.

Decided to switch places, but this time it got worst, more started to crawl out. Anyway its Ruth's big day lets skip all this nonsense. We left after our meal, and Ruth went for another parrrrrtay with her other VIP-s. ;)

To my sweet, sincere, and ever gorgeous Ruth, Happy birthday, no mushy words needed here on the blog, its all written on the love letter I gave you. (ahem!) May the Lord continue to guide you, and thank you for being such a sincere and good friend. Here's a toast to our friendship, and of course, your ~~'expiry day'~~ big day! :)

1st May 2010, Saturday

Finally, after the preparations that felt like years, the day has finally come. Wonder what I'm talking about?

THE METRO CARNIVAL of course! ;)

This carnival, rocked everyone's socks I'm sure, and it gave many of us, painful and 'sour' legs as well. The 'rocking' of our socks was too hard! Okay, lame.

The day before the carnival, stalls are being set up already, and on the day itself, most of us are already there at around 8am for a final check, prepping and arranging. I really thank God for the massive turn ups. Especially thankful for my college friends who attended, Tien Yi, Floyd, Tse Yau, Joanne and Andrea, thank you so so much, it meant a lot to me. :)

So disappointed that I could not pick Ruth up from the train station, there's so many things I wanna share with her if she was present. Tried the mechanical bull, and it almost ripped my arms off my body, its was so rocky! Worth the try though!

Also, I won the bid to go for a 'yumcha' session with Phat Phabes and Ben, so awesome that Aunty Georgina actually know them personally.

Everything was really smooth going, though it seriously made us all so so tired, it is worth it!

No pictures yet for today, I will post it up once I get my hand on those pictures. :)

x
Jessica L.

I'm on a roller coaster ride

2010-04-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

Going through a littttttle bit of emotional roller coaster these few days, or I should say, nights.

I wanna blog, and pour out my feelings and turn them into words, but I can't. Its all stuck deep down inside.

Ours hearts are like treasures, I shall learn how to give it to the right person, who will not shatter it into pieces once again, and for the broken pieces, I'm yet to pick it up, but it just breaks into pieces again while I'm trying fix it back.

Is all this heartache, temporary happiness, essential for us to grow up? I just feel it makes me fixate in a period of my life, and I don't know how to move on.

Can you just bury what I've said deep down in the ground, and lets go for a one day trip together. :)

Oh well, dream on, Miss Jessica.

26th April 2010 I want to be famous

2010-04-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

Talk to me if you need to, I know the limits this time, I'll be over it in no time. Though I once said I won't wanna be friends if things are not going to work out because I'm afraid I will fall even deeper, its different this time. I'll still be your friend. :) I know how the emptiness feels like, I may sound as childish as ever before, but I'm not all that childish, I know some things. To me, emptiness can only be filled with God's love, no matter how long you try to search for that feeling you yearn to feel, one day you'll still feel empty. I somehow would like to invite you to my church, but it feels.... funny.

Thank God I could wake up to get to college, if not another day wasted, and as usual, Monday pretty much stinks, having classes from 9am-3.30pm non stop is just tiring.

Lunch was awesome, though it was just canteen style fried maggi, the satisfaction was there, I think its not because the food tasted good, but I was really really hungry.

I feel really healthy today though, my meals are all taken in the appropriate time, breakfast, lunch and dinner. Spent about an hour at the gym, though was supposed to go chill with Lewis for a mo, but I decided to spend time with the treadmill. Nope, I'm not aiming to lose weight, just wanna increase the amount of slow twitch muscles I have :) LOL

No time for nap, felt like a mum today, had to pick up my sister from school, send my brother off for his tuition class, get the dinner ready, not enough dishes so went out to pack some from the restaurant, wash the dishes, reply my online boutique customers, bath, pick my brother up from tuition, and now I finally get to sit down, and blog

As promised, updates on Kelly Clarkson's concert.

Before that, there's a bad news :

The guards did not allow me to bring in the DSLR, so no pictures were taken during the concert.

Kelly has a very very strong aura. Not sure if I used the correct term, but she just has this thing, even when I'm not a huge fan of her, I wanted to scream and shout when I see her coming on stage. Pardon me, it is my first time attending such huge concerts. I admit I'm pretty jakun for bringing the DSLR, told you its my first time attending concerts! When I went for the football match between Chelsea and the Malaysia team, we only have our digital camera that time.

What made it best, is being able to attend it with my favorite radio announcers, Jules and Hunny. I've been a humongous fan of Fly FM, and being able to listen to them talk real life, it is just fantastic.

I wonder how it feels like to be famous when I heard all the fans screaming. If I can have one wish to be granted, I would really wanna be famous. Like Kelly Clarkson, or Lady Gaga. I'll have nicer outfits than Lady Gaga, no worries!

Arrived at Sri Pentas at approx 4pm, we could see the huge Kelly Clarkson Party Bus waiting for us.

After all the Kellyians have arrived, left for Borneo Rain Forest for dinner. Food selection was limited, the fried chicken was good though, not only its crispy enough, its boneless! Hunny and Jules actually prank us saying that we are actually not attending the concert, just going for a tour around the stadium, it was really quiet after Jules and Hunny said that, but I think most of us didn't buy it.

Here, I got to talk to the Hunny and she is so so funny. I like how real she is! Jules then came up to me and ask if she seen me somewhere before. Glad that she could actually recognize me, though she got the name wrong. :D Caroline was next, she's the news reported on Fly FM. She looks the total opposite of how I imagine she would look like every time I hear her speak.

Zhi Vern was next I chose to snap a picture with, he was nice enough to come and start a little conversation with me. :)

Ever gorgeous Hunny Madu!

News reporter Caroline :)

Zhi Vern ;)

After dinner, the next destination : Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil

On the bus, we were practising our chant to get attention, and once we step off the bus, we starting chanting :

I don't know what you've been told,
We are here to rock her show!
Kelly Clarkson in KL,
Fly FM we're fly as hell.

us chanting. We are fly as hell yo!

It was damn awesome, everyone was staring, and snapping pictures of us. Jaclyn Victor was the first to sing, and Suki next. Her dress is quite the inappropriate. Felt like a wedding dress, and she stepped in the wrong venue. Sorry!

When Kelly came on stage, everyone was screaming like crazy. She started the concert with All I Ever Wanted, one of my favourite songs. :) The details for the concert, you'll have to be there to experience it yourself, no words can describe it.

Still as energetic as ever after the concert.

Overall, it was good, definitely worth all the sweat I sweated out, and the strength I use to fan myself till the cardboard fan was torn.

Of course, without Fly FM, it would be a totally different experience. They made it awesome! So, thank you Fly FM! Thank you Adam Boy for choosing me. It was so random! :)

Before I forget, this Saturday, please avail yourself to the world awesomest carnival ever! Its going to the best damn thing that is going to happen to you if you come!

There's this auctioning thing going on, and one of the 'item' for bidding would be a 'yamcha' session with Phat Phabes and Ben. If you are reading this, and you are coming to the carnival, please please please leave that for me, okay? :)

For further details, leave me a note at my cbox or message me on Facebook. Better yet, just visit this page :

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#!/group.php?gid=364778186935&ref=ts

x
Jessica L.

539. Still in denial.

2010-04-24T02:42:00.000-07:00

Day out with the girls, Cheryl and Amelia. Did Cheryl a favor, and became a photographer of the day. Did some shots for myself as well of course.

Headed to Desa Park City first and those shots there were pretty amazing. Especially the ones for Cheryl. Honestly, I should seriously charge her for my 'pro-ness' ;D

Literally got chased out by the security guards for photo shooting at the park, decided to chill at the Kluang Station to think of the next best venue. Headed off to pick up Amelia after my awesome meal- Nasi Lemak, One U was the next best location that is near.

Went shopping, and bought ourself's friendship ring that cost us : RM2.50 after a 50% off. :0
Cotton On, Forever 21 and Topshop were the few shops that we window shopped around, checking out how ridiculous some of the prices are. Poor people like me cannot afford. :(

TOPSHOP

COTTON ON

Chapalang shop BLACKQUEEN, where we bought our rings. ;)

The funniest part was, I only took a minute to pick out the one I want, Amelia and Cheryl took forever. I was done browsing through the whole shop when they finally decided which ring they wanted. Lol. Got this 'power of quick browsing' from my mum, see how she pick out stocks and collections for her boutique. Power!

Stalker pic taken by Cheryl. :D

Guess what's on my head now?
- how badly I did for trials.

I'm going off to study.

x
Jessica L.

538. Tick Tock

2010-04-22T04:28:00.000-07:00

I miss those calls you make, around 6ish every single day of that week. Waking up every morning that week was beautiful, cause I get to hear your so called sexy voice when I give you your wake up call. Still reminiscing.

A story of how : Wake up in the morning feeling like ~~P. Diddy~~ going back to sleep sounds like.....

Slept really late last night, set the alarm to ring at 7.30am for Economics class at 9am. Before falling asleep, something did not feel right, and I woke up, reconfirmed my schedule, and realized that Economics actually starts at 8am. Damn right, after using that schedule for 4 months now, I still get it mixed up. So readjust the alarm to 6.30am. Was counting back the hours of sleep I can get till 6.30am -only 3 hours.

When the alarm ring, I shut it off, and I guess I forgot to snooze it, and by the time I wake up to check the time, it was about 7am already. Decided to skip Economics, texted Floyd to tell him I'll be missing the first class, and also to text me if Mrs Chiu decides to give us back our test papers.

I wonder what sort of dream I'm dreaming, I actually blur-ly wake up from the noise my phone made because of a text message, I read it but something extra registered in my head other than what the text originally says :

Lol. K. Why you missing?

I was too sleepy to reply and happily fall back to sleep, registering the text as :

Asking me why am I skipping, and no Mrs Chiu is not giving back our test paper, and she decided to shorten the next hour of Economics, which is at 11.30am to only 1/2 an hour.

Oh well, more reason for me not to go to class. Cause, it'd be wasting my time to go to college for a 1/2 an hour class, and then come back home. Oh, and Economics is the only class I have on Thursdays.

Mum walked into the room asking if I'm going to college or not, I told her the exact story, that Mrs Chiu is not giving the test paper, class is shorten to 1/2 an hour blah blah blah... so I'm not going to college.

Not till I wake up at 10.30am, read the 2nd text message from Floyd and it says:

She giving the papers.

I was shocked and the next thing I did was to find the text that Floyd sent, telling me that she's not giving back the test papers and about the class being shortened to only 1/2 an hour. But it went 'missing'. Pft.

Typical Jessica Lee.

Hunny gave me a surprise call this afternoon, asking me to sing a Kelly Clarkson song since I won the tickets to go for her concert. I was giggling the whole way, and when I hear myself on the radio, I nearly fainted. I sound like I total Cina moi.

I'm still freaking excited though to go for the concert this Sunday. What more when I get to go with other winners and Fly FM announcers as well?

Alright, guess my next post will be on the concert. Stay tuned. ;)

x
Jessica L.

537. 18th April 2010

2010-04-18T07:15:00.001-07:00

Was on tambourine duty today, and 'Sing, sing, sing' was terrible. Now every time I hear that song, I'll have phobia. Tommy was telling me how I look like a zombie on stage, oh God, that means my make up did not help. I thought I could look fresher with some make up on, and I tried to smile!

Mandy came over to hang after church, and there's my black dog, BJay being squished by his big fat owner. ;)
Was out again after she left, headed to Coffee Bean at Desa Park City to study with Grace.

I needa go learn how to adjust the shutter speed for daddy's D90. Hmm, I think the only time daddy has ever touched the camera, is the time when he first bought it. After that, I'm the one using it to snap pictures of my clothes for my blogshop, and my brother uses it to snap pictures of his friends and himself jamming. -.-

I want to go out every day. Lunch, dinner, supper, movie, different people each day would be awesome, keep my mind off things I don't want to think about. Going back to college would be good. I sense freedom that way, when I'm out, to see... Brickfields.

Since I've been out so much this month, I sense that my parents are beginning to trust me more, because they don't call me anymore to check on me.

Its 12.24am. But I feel like its only 8pm. I took nap at the wrong time, and did not realized that its already 10pm when I wake up.

Still, I just yawned. Pft.

x
Jessica L.

17th April 2010

2010-04-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

That night you called me, it was so weird that I can't imagine that I'm talking to you. Instead, he was the one I was imagining, cause you both sound so alike. Don't get me wrong, it is plainly because you both sound so so alike. Funny, really.

Have been going out more than I usually do, this month.

The afternoon was spent with Eric at One Utama, lunched then movie. Supposed to watch Clash of The Titans, but the sits left were too close to the screen, ended up watching Shutter Island.

A lil spoiler here, the movie is about a man name Andrew Laeddis, who has multiple personality disorder and changed his name to 'Teddy' Edward Daniels, using all the same letters from his name, Andrew Laeddis. Though you will not know nothing about him having disorders in the beginning, because it pretty much leaves you in suspense and blurness until the end, when the truth was slowly revealed.

For people who likes complicated movies, where you have to twist your brain a lil to figure out what message the movie is trying to convey to you, Shutter Island is the type of movie that will suit you. It suited me well, cause, I'm probably just as psycho the people in the psychiatric ward in the movie, and probably my name is not Jessica, Like how Teddy isn't Teddy Edward Daniels , but Andrew Laeddis. ;D Kidding!

One really bad thing about the movie is that it gives me the feeling that I'm watching a horror movie. Sound effect -.-

I'm really 'in love' with all this disorders because it somehow, is amazing to me. How one, or the ego defence mechanism play its role, forming split personalities, to 'protect' one from being hurt, and preventing oneself from harmful thoughts and actions.

Thinking back about Eric's advice, pretty true that in the coming 5-10 years, psychologists would be in high demand since the pressure children face nowadays are getting stronger and heavier each day. Compare their syllabus with the pass 5 year's syllabus, so much changes, and Mandarin alone, the characters they learn are so tough.

Oh, I'm never a fan of TVB drama's but I recently got hooked on to one of their shows called The Silver Chambers of Sorrow. Its one of the best TVB drama I've watched, despite the cruelty and the unjust that are potrayed. I think the actors and actress did a really amazing job, the level of 'dramaness' is higher than Gossip Girl. See how cruel the women can act in that show, you'll know. I think women are better actress than men are.

The Friday night spent with Grace was fantastic, it was needed, for the both of us to clear of mind a bit. Time to snap back up, and grow up!

Alright, I shall go to bed.

x
Jessica L.

16th April 2010 When All is Clear

2010-04-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Mr Loo made us faint by asking the question on Autism, then killed us all with his Raine et al (1997) Brain Abnormality in Murderers question. I think there's too little questions though, cause Psychology papers are usually really long, and Grace agrees on this, too.

Though I still have Psychology 4 to sit for next Monday, won't hurt if I go out for lunch with the girls (&some guys) together with Mr Ken, and this time, Ken Ken brought his girlfriend. :)

Lunch-ed at :

I love the concept of how they combine the cafe with a boutique. Beautiful. ;)

We made Mr Ken practice to propose to his 'wife to be' and it was hilarious.

My decision to call you, was really to tell you how sorry I am, and I'm merely cleaning up the mess, for myself. It was pretty heart breaking when you say I was acting mature when I'm not. I wasn't acting, though I know I'm immature, that phone call was something that has gone through my brains before it come out from my mouth. It kinda make me feel like, everything I do, is wrong.

I wonder how and why, in such a short period of time, everything could change so fast. I could see things more clearly now. I'm no longer blaming karma for all the bad things that happened to me, it was all along, my own fault, because I thought I'm smart enough, I'm too proud and always thought I am right, and mature enough. Thus, I would really like to thank you, (though somethings you said, really hurt me) for being truthful, and not plainly accepting who I am, so I could see for myself, the real me.

Not sure if you would read my blog, and yes, I intentionally put my blog link on MSN, because I don't want to bother you no more by sending you childish messages and what not-s.

Oh God, I'm feeling sleepy now.

x
Jessica L.

To move on, or to hold on?

2010-04-15T00:38:00.000-07:00

Love is something you dont plan for, it happens, and you make time. Period, no excuses.
To let go is not to forget, not think about, or ignore.
It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret.
Letting go isn’t winning, nor is it losing
It’s not about pride.
It’s not obsession about or dwelling on the past.
It isn’t about loss and it’s not defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories, but overcome them.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change
The strength to keep moving.
Letting go is growing up.

Why do I find this so beautiful? Moving on, carry on, can I do it? No more lameness, childishness thinking that I'm superwoman, I seriously wonder if I can do it.

I'm not a superwoman, just a good actress. See how I act at home, you'll know what I mean. Behind the close door of my four walls, I go insane, but no one knows. Oh, Grace, she knows! In front of my parents, I laugh like I'm mad, they'll just say : "you study till mad dy ah?" Enough, enough. Time to grow up. In less than a week, you made me realize so many things.

I love talking to Ruth, she has that mature-ness I want to have. How to accept, see things in a different perspective, and to at least look calm, and serene.

Sigh.

I'm wrong.

2010-04-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

There is no way I can express how sorry I am, the more things I say, the more crap comes out, and then I piss you off. Keep it short and sweet, forgive me and come back?

Though you're not entirely right, and I'm not entirely wrong, I will definitely admit that, 90% of the time, I'm wrong. You were right, I probably do have an attitude problem. I needa change, not for you but for myself. My stubborness especially.

This time, I screwed up. BIG TIME.

Memory lane. 9th April 2010

2010-04-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

Jessavelle reunited.

Jes : Jessica
Sa : Jesslynn (Clarissa)
V : Vee Vian
Elle : Lien Siaw (L)

The name we name ourselves during highschool, and amazingly, we could still use it after those childish stress free highschool days. Lets see how long this name can stand, and remember those dreams we used to have? Boutiques? Restaurants? Cafes?

I had to walk down memory lane today. I was at Borders again today to meet up with Lewis. Thanks so much Lewis, and Grace. Fighting back those tears while walking pass the places we went through. Even the parking space seems to be a really romantic spot now. Wth.

How I miss Yas Marina Hotel at Abu Dhabi. It will be one of those places I would spend my honeymoon at.

Everytime when I feel down, I think of Dubai, and everything feels better. Why is the grass always greener on the other side? Pft.

xx
Jessica L.

I didn't know you don't know how to walk. You said jokingly.
In my heart I was thinking, yeah I don't that's why I need you right beside me so I won't fall.

so lame.

Excited, araid at the same time.

2010-04-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

I'm so excited about it, yet I'm afraid of it.

Daddy bought his iPhone, and he is like so freaking happy about it. He came hugging me, bought me Starbucks together with a lil surprise call that sounds like :

Daddy: I bought you something.
Me: What what?
Daddy: Starts with C.
Me: Coffee bean?
Daddy: CCC. Chocolate Cream Chip.

Really glad he bought me my CCC, its been sometime since I last drink Starbucks, so thanks Daddy. Alright, Biology time. Economics is terrible. :S

x
Jessica L.